The hardest part isn't finding what we need to be, it's being content with who you are
so yeah i decided this past weekend when everything fell apart that i wanted to just go on with life and be happy with what i have. i mean what the hell is wrong with me i always wanted more and never was content with what i had. i took a step back and realized that i am leaving for college in about a month and although things are messed up they dont have to be. I should try to make ammeds with people and if they dont realize that i am only human and made a mistake that i have punished myself enough for then i dont need to deal with it.
So yeah ive been having a great week! ive been working and hanging out with different people and my family and going to the gym...a lot. (thats the only thing that i am upset with right now, i had my fitness testing at the gym and i was right lol i am fat HAha but yeah im working on it.) i go to the gym about 3 times a week and run about everyday so im trying.
I dunno im just enjoying my last summer at home and if people want to spend the time with me then they can call me cause im sick of feeling like im despirate by calling people so much. So yeah well im gunna go help my mom with dinner now :)
<3 Beck