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It's been quite awhile since I updated. I guess we're ready to move, have almost everything packed, the moving company booked, the car carrier booked. We decided to get movers and someone to take our car so we can all go in Dede's van.
Right now, I feel very numb I guess you can say. I'm not sure how I feel. I'm just sitting here in shock I guess, that something so horrible could happen so close to home, less than a MILE from our house and the whole thing doesn't make any sense. I will let you see the artical yourself. We had just gotten Cory, actually we took some things over to him, he wanted me to see something on his pc that was wrong with it, so I did. Stayed a little longer than planned, left his house, went to take a cable box back to the company that I needed to a long time ago. Then we were going to go straight to Best Buy so Cory could get Norton Antivirus, because we still had time before Heidi's bus got to our house, like more than an hour I guess. I didn't want to go straight there. I just felt like we had to go get Heidi right then. I felt like if we didn't something would happen. I didn't know what, just knew it had to do with cars. I naturally thought accident. That even though Heidi wouldn't be involved exactly that if we didn't get her right then, something about a "car accident" would keep her from getting home on time. This is the honest truth. I really felt this.
Anyway, we went to get Heidi, signed her out and left, went to Best Buy. Cory bought Norton and then we went to Chili's ate there and had to then take Cory to work. Before we got to Best Buy, we saw three police cars with sirens and and lights and a fire truck and an ambulance so we all commented on what it could be. Then we got to Best Buy and even in Best Buy it was sureal. I don't know why but I felt detached from everything, and went to help Cory get Norton and then just stalled around. I wasn't enjoying myself looking at anything, just walking around a little. Then Cory said we ned to go. So we went to Chili's and ate. I felt better after eating but still had a nagging feeling that something wasn't right. Not a panic feeling, just very odd. So we ate, took Cory to work and I had to go to the library and make copies of the moving information but it was almost closing time so I didn't really have time to finish. I'm not sure why I insisted on going so late. I guess that really has nothing to do with it. It's just my observations of the day. It was a little after 6 pm and we got home. I wanted to go check on Dede because I kept thinking Dede and the kids. I still wasn't sure. Anyway, a few minutes later she knocked on the door and was very upset. She had been there.. She seen the whole thing. The kids were hungry and even she was but she said she didn't know if she could eat but she was hungry all at the same time but she didn't want to cook anything but she was terrified to drive anywhere. So Kevin said he would drive, so we all went to KFC. She got her family some food and I got Heidi and me something again because I was hungry again and so was she. Kevin wasn't even though when we got back to Dede's (we went through the drivethrough) he ate a piece of my chicken. lol Anyway, we stayed a little while at he house but then walked back to our house about 10 pm. and damn it if I'm not hungry again! lol I don't know why, I just am. Anyway, I just keep thinking, what if we hadn't gotten Heidi when we did? What if we had instead started to go home instead of taking Cory to Best Buy? What if we had came up that road just a few minutes later or earlier or whatever the case may be? They had to lock down the school for over two hours after the incident too, so we couldn't have gotten Heidi until the bus brought her so I would have been worried if I didn't know why she was late, etc., What if Dede had been just a little later, picking up her kids from school, or whichever? All of this is still going through my mind.
Here is an artical. It's not very informative but it's enough to get the basic story. Dede told us more, because she saw it but I can't began to retell that.
http://www.lincolntribune.com/modules/news/article.php?storyid=3645