Another Day Dies 21
Another Day Dies but We Need To Keep Breathing 21
I entered the room eyes glued to the floor as I stood a few steps away from the entrance not daring to look at the love of my life. Yes the love of my life. I have loved her since I laid my eyes on her 2 years and nearly 3 months ago, since I felt this spark between us. I’ve tried to talk to her ever since but she didn’t allow that anybody would come near her. I talked to my friends about my feelings and they understood it very well. They tried to help me but gave up sometime. I’m not complaining. I know how frustrated I became when nothing would help. So I saw my chance the day we bumped “accidentally” into another again.
I giggle slightly at the memory.
“What are you giggling at?”
“Sorry. Just a memory.”
Silence filled the room again. I sighed looking around the room everywhere but her.
Shuffling from one foot to the other I tried to gain the strength to speak up.
“So…You thought about everything?”
“Hm yes I have.”
“And?”
I asked now looking straight at her searching for her eyes I felt my hopes sink every second she didn’t answer.
“I think I have my answer then.”
I whispered after 10 minutes of silence. I turned around towards the door. Taking the few steps towards it and gripping the handle I looked over my shoulder seeing her looking out of the window.
“I’m sorry, Soph.”
Walking out of the room I saw Rosie standing up from her seat looking confused.
“What happened?”
“Nothing Rosie….”
I start walking down the corridor towards the exit.
“SIAN??”
Not looking back I kept up my pace. Reaching into my pocket I grabbed my iPod. I put the earphones in my ears and pressed play as a few tears escaped my eyes down my cheeks.
I reached the exit as anyone griped my wrist but I shrugged them off fully aware that it was Rosie. I turned around looking into Rosie’s eyes.
“Don’t touch me.”
“Sian? Why are you running away?”
I gulped the lump in my throat.
“Isn’t it obvious? She has made her decision.”
“You can’t go like this Sian. She needs you can’t you see that?”
“Leave it. It just hurts.”
“Go back in there Sian. I know you love her and she loves you. What’s your problem?”
“MY problem? She doesn’t want me! That’s my problem and the reason why I’m leaving.”
I started walking again this time faster. Raindrops started to fall on me as I passed the parking lot.
Skies are crying
I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it’s ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like there’s nothing left of me?
I walked through the empty streets rain dashing onto me like there was no tomorrow but it didn’t bother me that I was getting soaked. I don’t even know where I’m now. I reached a park walking through it I felt slightly exhausted.
There was tree with a bench, a playground and everything but I decided to lie onto the grass looking into the sky.
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I’ll be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
As the smoke clears
I awaken and untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better
To watch me while I bleed
All my windows, still are broken
But I’m standing on my feet
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I’ll be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
Go run, run, run
I’m gonna stay right here
Watch you disappear
Go run run run
Yeah its a long way down
But I’m closer to the clouds up here
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I’ll be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
But I felt like I could not stand up. The weight on my heart was too much. It pressed me to the ground as tears streamed down my face. I felt like my heart was ripped apart. I cried my eyes out as the rain got heavier.
After what felt like hours I managed to get up only to crawl to the nearest tree. I sat under this tree knees pulled up, my arms around my body trying to hold myself I rested my chin on them. I started to tremble in every limb praying I would catch my death out here to escape this whole situation and this dammed heartbreak.