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ok so about last night ... if you talked to me at all you know i freaked out a lil ... more like alot ... ya see everytime i start to really really like a guy ... something goes terribly wrong ... always never fails ... i think i've been in one relationship were the guy did NOT cheat on me ... and michael if you know that story well he has scarred me and scott lets just say i cant even look at him any more ... and thats hard cuz he goes to my school and i see him all the time ... ok so anyways the new guy ... robert yesterday morning was great ... i went and got my paycheck and called him to see what he was up to and he had to run an errand to south austin so i decided i would accompany him and it was great ... i love just being with him ... when we got to our destination the lady in the office ( he was making a car payment ) asked if i was him 'Girlfriend' and he looked at me and said yes ... he's never said that ... i felt special and then when we got back his mom called and wanted him to run to the store for a couple things and come home so he had to go and he dropped me off at my car ( not without a lil bit of making out of course ) and PROMISED me that we would hang out since neither one of us had to work that night ... so i go run all my errands like get a new cell fone and afterwards i try to call him to see what we were gunna do and well he aparently fell asleep and then way way later that night i called again and he was out with tony (tony's is the house everyone goes to do drugs and get drunk ) he was drinking cuz he doesnt do drugs ... and i was upset cuz he didnt call .. and this isnt the first time he has flaked out on me ... i freaked ... cried shhh dont tell him ... and felt horrible about myself cuz i always think there is something wrong with me when a guy does this ... and i talked to a few people danny was the best ... he helped he knows robert and was about to go over to tony's so he talked to robert aparently when he got there and robert called me and stayed out side the rest of the night on the phone with me and appologised (sp) and talked about how much he likes me and loves spending time with me and all kinds of stuff ... he wouldnt stop apologising (sp)... it was cute ... in a drunken stupid loser kinda way lol ... so yea all is well in becca land once again ...