if I say "count to three, and move towards me" would you meet me half the way?

[beccamonkey]

so first, for the less lame-adolescent-musings part of the post:

I am sort of doing okay right now, at the “whole life thing,” to quote my dear emily.  I mean, nothing particularly amazing is happening, and I am still way less productive than I would like to be, but I am keeping on top of my bills (thanks in great part to a generous gift from

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[artificialemo]

When Al and I met, I was totally in this phase. I was literally having a fling with a guy I refused to give my phone number because I didn't want to hear about how he was in love with me.

Fast forward several months and I'm realizing that I am in love with Al, but can't bring myself to tell him or act on it. This other girl is flirting with him and I'm fine. I'm totally fine. It's sorta funny that I'm this dumb. Until WHAM - Al is totally all over me until she's around, then he's all over her acting as though I don't exist. In all fairness, I held no claim and did not attack. I just kicked him out of my house and refused to answer the phone or return calls. I thought it was a totally rational decision, until he just showed up when I was sitting on the deck and I couldn't hide.

The point: it'll all work out. Don't sweat all the problems you have. We all have them and they might just make you happy because you've got crazy stories. Seriously, when you need to act, you will. This isn't like buying a new pair of shoes. It's love. It makes you irrational. That makes you incapable of acting like normal.

[beccamonkey]

thank you vi, it is good to be reminded that I'm not the only one who gets irrational about this :-). I guess if it gets to the point where I can't refrain from acting, I will act. hopefully in a manner that is not insane. and even if it is insane, you're right...there is a certain pleasure to having the crazy stories, and it's been awhile since I've had one. we'll see what happens.

[artificialemo]

I don't mean to convince you to do something nuts. It never feels pleasurable when it's happening, but after several years, it develops that memory lapse glow.

[beccamonkey]

yeah, I don't think there's much danger of me doing anything truly nuts...speaking honestly is about as much as I could handle, and that's not even a guarantee :-).