Oh hai.
I came here because what I wanted to do was copy and paste a journal or two that I'd written on FL and then I realized ... no. Those belong there. If you don't go on FL and you want a copy, get me your email address and I'll be happy to send them to you.
The last six months since I found out I was being cheated on have been ... heartwrenching. Not necessarily totally because of him, or what he did... just ...
Rebecca Growth.
Finally addressing the hurt and abandonment I've felt from the last few ex boyfriends. Finally dealing with the pain of being laid off so many times.
Realizing my worth.
Finding my leather. Finding my place. Looking for connections.
Updates: I'm a bootblack now. I'm still single. My job is amazing. People are contacting ME privately .... ME .... to take care of their leather. I feel .... Honored. I was given the entirety of someone's gifted leather to take care of. I'm not sure for how long, but I'm blown away by the trust.
The bootblack / leather care thing is probably the biggest thing in my life right now. I can't really put into words (Well, maybe I can ... sorta ... https://fetlife.com/users/21029/posts/1645718 ) what all of this means to me. I'm the first one to bring this type of leather care back into the area (at least publicly) since lilredhead and it feels sooooooo much bigger than all the words I can think of put together.
If I'm not happy, at the very least ... I'm content.
My babygirl side is back ....
and I'm ready to move on.
The last six months since I found out I was being cheated on have been ... heartwrenching. Not necessarily totally because of him, or what he did... just ...
Rebecca Growth.
Finally addressing the hurt and abandonment I've felt from the last few ex boyfriends. Finally dealing with the pain of being laid off so many times.
Realizing my worth.
Finding my leather. Finding my place. Looking for connections.
Updates: I'm a bootblack now. I'm still single. My job is amazing. People are contacting ME privately .... ME .... to take care of their leather. I feel .... Honored. I was given the entirety of someone's gifted leather to take care of. I'm not sure for how long, but I'm blown away by the trust.
The bootblack / leather care thing is probably the biggest thing in my life right now. I can't really put into words (Well, maybe I can ... sorta ... https://fetlife.com/users/21029/posts/1645718 ) what all of this means to me. I'm the first one to bring this type of leather care back into the area (at least publicly) since lilredhead and it feels sooooooo much bigger than all the words I can think of put together.
If I'm not happy, at the very least ... I'm content.
My babygirl side is back ....
and I'm ready to move on.