Takin an ass whoopin
Ok, so I am all hurt up. My lower back is fuct and my MRI isn't scheduled until thursday.
I called into work again because I am in so much pain. I am really freaked right now though. All this crazy shit is going through my head. What if I need back surgery? What if I'm fuct up like this for the rest of my life? How am I going to survive on disability? If there is a higher being which I am pretty sure there is....could you please help a poor white girl out here? I mean, c'mon haven't I endured my share for 2007?
My Grandmother battling for life. One of my best friends died. I broke a few toes...................
and just as those heal I fuck up my back. Now it's only March and all my vacation time at work is gone. I am getting into a slight funk here.
A part of me is so happy when I think about K. She is moving here to be with me and I am really happy and really nervous at the same time. I am upset at the thought that here I am completely in love and things were starting to look up and now I am feeling crippled or handicapped and I hate this! My mother assured me my brother would help Kat get all her stuff in when she moves but still I am bothered. What if I have to have surgery and am laid up in bed for a few weeks? Oh God, my stomach aches just thinking about it. I feel really helpless and it couldn't come at a worse time.
I am in love and was just starting to get back on track for work. I want to start school A.S.A.P.
I have plans for a potential buisness. Why now? Life is so fucking crazy ya know?
I am in a ton of pain so I am going to lay back down. I have sat as long as I can and I can no longer :(
I called into work again because I am in so much pain. I am really freaked right now though. All this crazy shit is going through my head. What if I need back surgery? What if I'm fuct up like this for the rest of my life? How am I going to survive on disability? If there is a higher being which I am pretty sure there is....could you please help a poor white girl out here? I mean, c'mon haven't I endured my share for 2007?
My Grandmother battling for life. One of my best friends died. I broke a few toes...................
and just as those heal I fuck up my back. Now it's only March and all my vacation time at work is gone. I am getting into a slight funk here.
A part of me is so happy when I think about K. She is moving here to be with me and I am really happy and really nervous at the same time. I am upset at the thought that here I am completely in love and things were starting to look up and now I am feeling crippled or handicapped and I hate this! My mother assured me my brother would help Kat get all her stuff in when she moves but still I am bothered. What if I have to have surgery and am laid up in bed for a few weeks? Oh God, my stomach aches just thinking about it. I feel really helpless and it couldn't come at a worse time.
I am in love and was just starting to get back on track for work. I want to start school A.S.A.P.
I have plans for a potential buisness. Why now? Life is so fucking crazy ya know?
I am in a ton of pain so I am going to lay back down. I have sat as long as I can and I can no longer :(