Baby it's cold outside
Well yesterday was a trying day for me but what's new? I dropped and broke my cell phone. I proceeded to forget about my roommates birthday as well as my step father's birthday. I went through pictures of growing up with a friend in search of pictures of my recently deceased friend. That brought up all sorts of memories and emotions. It also put me in a strange state. Then as I am about to leave my friends house my Mom's cellie (that I borrowed for the night) started ringing. It was my brother so I booted him. Later on I find out he had a car radiator blow up on him and he has 2nd and 3rd degree burns as well as being monitored for having antifreeze in his eyes, nose and mouth. Can we say Poison Control? So he was in the E.R.
I still haven't called him yet. I figured I will let him rest.
I felt pretty off last night. Like the slew of bad events will never end. I didn't mean to but after getting home to broken glass on the floor, a messy house and the cats not having any food or water I kind of flipped. I was on the phone with my girl and felt myself ready to have a mini meltdown so I asked her if I could call her back and started cleaning up the shit. Everything bad ran through my head in sequential order. What really pissed me off though is that my roommate is currently unemployed and only has 1 class a week and can't seem to motivate to clean up after herself or feed our cats. I am kind of exhausted....emotionally and physically.
I called my girl back when I was settled. I love talking with K. She tries to get me to look at the bright side of things or get a more positive attitude ot thought pattern. I don't know how she deals with me and my antics sometimes. I know I can be trying at times and lately more then ever I just feel as if my plate is way too full. I have about a million thoughts going on in my head and sometimes it's just hard to focus. I let things build up and take it in all at once. I know I should pace my thoughts and plans but I just let it get the best of me. Sometimes it's hard being the organizer, the event planner, the best friend, the daughter, sister, aunt, the sole provider, the comedian, the lover, the good girl, the life of the party, the good conversationalist, the open minded gypsy that I am. I can't tell you how many times I find myself wanting to run away and start new. I know that's not the answer but as I told Kat last night....sometimes I just wish my life was boring for a week, hell I would take a day at this point.
I had a recently fired co-worker come into the B'ville office yesterday and offer me a job working with her and a group of highly intelligent, business minded lesbians. She just asked that I come to the meeting tomorrow after work to hear her out before I made any decisions. She gave me the address and her telephone #. She also felt the need to tell me she is recently single. Those words were the thing that made me want to understand human needs.
I think it's insane that when you finally find someone that is one of your soul mates you are tested like a mutherfucker.
I think my friend Reese is right. I think there is a pheromone that is given off when your in love and this pheromone is triggered with the basic concept of I want what I can't have. Either that or it's because my esteem is at it's best because I am in love and have someone who loves me. When you are loved and happy people naturally want to share that with you or be a part of it. Strange.
Well it's snowing pretty good out there. Maybe it will deter the degenerate customers from coming in today and finally give me a day of R&R.
Never mind...guess not.
I still haven't called him yet. I figured I will let him rest.
I felt pretty off last night. Like the slew of bad events will never end. I didn't mean to but after getting home to broken glass on the floor, a messy house and the cats not having any food or water I kind of flipped. I was on the phone with my girl and felt myself ready to have a mini meltdown so I asked her if I could call her back and started cleaning up the shit. Everything bad ran through my head in sequential order. What really pissed me off though is that my roommate is currently unemployed and only has 1 class a week and can't seem to motivate to clean up after herself or feed our cats. I am kind of exhausted....emotionally and physically.
I called my girl back when I was settled. I love talking with K. She tries to get me to look at the bright side of things or get a more positive attitude ot thought pattern. I don't know how she deals with me and my antics sometimes. I know I can be trying at times and lately more then ever I just feel as if my plate is way too full. I have about a million thoughts going on in my head and sometimes it's just hard to focus. I let things build up and take it in all at once. I know I should pace my thoughts and plans but I just let it get the best of me. Sometimes it's hard being the organizer, the event planner, the best friend, the daughter, sister, aunt, the sole provider, the comedian, the lover, the good girl, the life of the party, the good conversationalist, the open minded gypsy that I am. I can't tell you how many times I find myself wanting to run away and start new. I know that's not the answer but as I told Kat last night....sometimes I just wish my life was boring for a week, hell I would take a day at this point.
I had a recently fired co-worker come into the B'ville office yesterday and offer me a job working with her and a group of highly intelligent, business minded lesbians. She just asked that I come to the meeting tomorrow after work to hear her out before I made any decisions. She gave me the address and her telephone #. She also felt the need to tell me she is recently single. Those words were the thing that made me want to understand human needs.
I think it's insane that when you finally find someone that is one of your soul mates you are tested like a mutherfucker.
I think my friend Reese is right. I think there is a pheromone that is given off when your in love and this pheromone is triggered with the basic concept of I want what I can't have. Either that or it's because my esteem is at it's best because I am in love and have someone who loves me. When you are loved and happy people naturally want to share that with you or be a part of it. Strange.
Well it's snowing pretty good out there. Maybe it will deter the degenerate customers from coming in today and finally give me a day of R&R.
Never mind...guess not.