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im a thinker
i think too much and it always gets me into trouble... i am probably the most indecicive person ever. i can never make up my mind and i always change my mind
i hate it
i wish everyone could just talk about things... i want to know what some people are honestly thinking... i hate it..
boys as usual are the most confusing creatures... girls are too i bet.. i just honestly think that we dont truly understand anyone other than ourselves.. not necicarily the opposite sex, just anyone. people are confusing. and for that matter i dont even understand myself half of the time... how are we supposed to understand others when we dont get ourselves
soemtimes i just wish i could be someone else.. just to see what its like.. and change the way i feel- but everyon knows we cant mess with emotions.. they are what they are and thy never chage... i hate it feelings dont just go away.. you can cover them up but eventually theyll shine through again.
i want clear answers and reasons to why people do things.. and i know there probably wont ever be clear answeres... but i wish i had soemthing close
im surviving... not happy.. not really sad... just sort of moving along.. counting my days until i get to have a fresh start. a fresh place with all new people. right now highschool seems like a joke. 4 years is just far too long to be in this place.
its not that i dont care about my grades or anything... i just want to leave. i know how everyone always says they are going to miss their old friends.. its not that im not going to miss them. there is a small handful of people i wsh i never had to say bye to.. and you know who you are.. but for the most part thats what i want... new faces to look at everyday.. newpeople new friends new atmosphere
i really am trying to make the best of it right now.. just trying to have fun and enjoy it... but its hard. i miss how close i used to be with everyone.. krystie and kyrie.. nicole too... just we all used to be so close.. and i miss how that cirle sort of changed... not broke.. just all sort of shifted.
im going to miss home the most. yes itll be nice not having parents to set cerfews yada yada all that shitty stuff but for the most part my parents are the best. and ill miss seeing them every day...
mostly i miss my dog. i know it sounds lame to miss a pet that you cant even communicate with more than anything.. but i miss her the most. part of me wants a new dog... but i really dont.. i know that that dog could never be as great as she was.. i miss her.. i would do anything just to have another day with her
i think a family isnt complete w/o a dog.. something about them.. they just complete a family.. my house is just so empty without her.. i also think every child should grow up having a pet.. and i feel bad for the ones that didnt get the chance too becuase they really missed out on something..
i just miss her... i want her back
if someone actually reads this whole thing ill be suprised...
like i said im a thinker.. and i think WAAAY too much sometimes.
i think too much and it always gets me into trouble... i am probably the most indecicive person ever. i can never make up my mind and i always change my mind
i hate it
i wish everyone could just talk about things... i want to know what some people are honestly thinking... i hate it..
boys as usual are the most confusing creatures... girls are too i bet.. i just honestly think that we dont truly understand anyone other than ourselves.. not necicarily the opposite sex, just anyone. people are confusing. and for that matter i dont even understand myself half of the time... how are we supposed to understand others when we dont get ourselves
soemtimes i just wish i could be someone else.. just to see what its like.. and change the way i feel- but everyon knows we cant mess with emotions.. they are what they are and thy never chage... i hate it feelings dont just go away.. you can cover them up but eventually theyll shine through again.
i want clear answers and reasons to why people do things.. and i know there probably wont ever be clear answeres... but i wish i had soemthing close
im surviving... not happy.. not really sad... just sort of moving along.. counting my days until i get to have a fresh start. a fresh place with all new people. right now highschool seems like a joke. 4 years is just far too long to be in this place.
its not that i dont care about my grades or anything... i just want to leave. i know how everyone always says they are going to miss their old friends.. its not that im not going to miss them. there is a small handful of people i wsh i never had to say bye to.. and you know who you are.. but for the most part thats what i want... new faces to look at everyday.. newpeople new friends new atmosphere
i really am trying to make the best of it right now.. just trying to have fun and enjoy it... but its hard. i miss how close i used to be with everyone.. krystie and kyrie.. nicole too... just we all used to be so close.. and i miss how that cirle sort of changed... not broke.. just all sort of shifted.
im going to miss home the most. yes itll be nice not having parents to set cerfews yada yada all that shitty stuff but for the most part my parents are the best. and ill miss seeing them every day...
mostly i miss my dog. i know it sounds lame to miss a pet that you cant even communicate with more than anything.. but i miss her the most. part of me wants a new dog... but i really dont.. i know that that dog could never be as great as she was.. i miss her.. i would do anything just to have another day with her
i think a family isnt complete w/o a dog.. something about them.. they just complete a family.. my house is just so empty without her.. i also think every child should grow up having a pet.. and i feel bad for the ones that didnt get the chance too becuase they really missed out on something..
i just miss her... i want her back
if someone actually reads this whole thing ill be suprised...
like i said im a thinker.. and i think WAAAY too much sometimes.