Repeat Patterns
It's funny how we experience de'ja vu and the explanation is that we are making decisions similar to those we've made in another instance, triggering some weird chemicals in our bodies that don't react properly because the situation is different and such chemicals are not needed in the same way they were the first time.
So, is that why I don't feel de'ja vu in an instance where the situation is so close to the same? Is it because I need the same chemicals? I don't think that's the case. I have more support, less pressure for action, and more sleep (lol...hard to imagine, I know!)... Definitely not the same circumstances.
No, I don't have de'ja vu...but I am feeling constant reminders of "what happened last time"...leading to regrets, anxiety, self-recrimination, and thinly-emerging cracks in my conveyed willingness for involvement.
Maybe I'm just tired and thin-stretched. My own fault and I don't want to hear they "you need to slow down," "you need to say no," "you need to take care of yourself" I-told-you-so's. I'm just writing...
So, is that why I don't feel de'ja vu in an instance where the situation is so close to the same? Is it because I need the same chemicals? I don't think that's the case. I have more support, less pressure for action, and more sleep (lol...hard to imagine, I know!)... Definitely not the same circumstances.
No, I don't have de'ja vu...but I am feeling constant reminders of "what happened last time"...leading to regrets, anxiety, self-recrimination, and thinly-emerging cracks in my conveyed willingness for involvement.
Maybe I'm just tired and thin-stretched. My own fault and I don't want to hear they "you need to slow down," "you need to say no," "you need to take care of yourself" I-told-you-so's. I'm just writing...