Wow...
I can't believe it was FOUR YEARS AGO today that I had my car accident. Some days it feels like it was barely a few months ago and some days it feels like a lifetime ago. So much has changed. I know I am a very different person than I was them...at least my insides feel like it. And it's not just because I'm missing some, haha! ;D
I've met so many people since then and have been through more than four years should have held. It's wild. And time continues to fly by. Am I moving or letting it move around me? I try not to put up resistance, but I wonder if I hold myself back sometimes to stay in the comfortable familiar. I'm not content, but I'm not unhappy either. I'm...restless...agitated...uncomfortable. Is that the Spirit in me, calling me to something bigger? Different? Better??? I don't know. But I do know I praise God that I'm alive and moving physically, if not else-wise. :P What a marvelous second chance He has given me. I know I am far from deserving. But I also know how much closer I am to where I need to be...and am so grateful for that...
I've met so many people since then and have been through more than four years should have held. It's wild. And time continues to fly by. Am I moving or letting it move around me? I try not to put up resistance, but I wonder if I hold myself back sometimes to stay in the comfortable familiar. I'm not content, but I'm not unhappy either. I'm...restless...agitated...uncomfortable. Is that the Spirit in me, calling me to something bigger? Different? Better??? I don't know. But I do know I praise God that I'm alive and moving physically, if not else-wise. :P What a marvelous second chance He has given me. I know I am far from deserving. But I also know how much closer I am to where I need to be...and am so grateful for that...