I found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

[beccaannabel]

Oblivion resounds clearly in my mind;
And thoughts of doubt that I had,
are now diminished
with this new-found sense of knowledge
This knowledge of something that could be good
but in this context is not.
I wonder how I couldn't have seen this,
and why I am letting it affecting me so much
Now
When I should be ignoring it.
But I'm not.
I'm looking out for you, your feelings.
Why am I doing this after you kept me in the dark
For so long
My thoughts are going around and around and
I can't keep it all straight.
I don't want to think about this right now,
but it seems inescapable.
I can't think about that without thinkig about this.
And I blame myself for not figuring this out sooner,
Why didn't I figure this out sooner?
Are you right?
I was neglecting you?
I was preoccupied?
Whatever the reason,
I'm sorry.