Bad Day
So this is the worst day I've had in a while. It seems like everything reminds me of my dad. It started last night when I realized that tomorrow will be a month since he passed away, then this morning in Comp 2 we were watching a movie and Billy had to tell his wife that he was dying. I had to leave class because I started to cry and I didn't want to cry in front of the class. After that I talked to my mom on the phone for a while before my next class. I don't know what it is, but I have just been edgy since then. I cry over stupid stuff, like if no one is around me for a few minutes. Jessy is taking a nap right now b/c she feels like crap, and I went over to the chapel for like 10 minutes and sat there and prayed for God to watch my mom and my brother and I b/c sometimes I feel like I am all alone and I need help to make it through the day.
I believe that we all have gaurdian angels, they don't necessarily make it so that we don't do ANYTHING wrong, but they help us through the hard times. Your angel may change from one day to the next. I think that some days Jessy is my angel, I truly do, I think that's why when we are apart I don't know what to do with myself sometimes. She has helped me through SO much and I feel like sometimes I don't thank her enough for it. I love you so much!!!
I called Stephanie today because I needed someone to calm me down. She did a good job alright. A few minutes of talking to her and I was ready to go again. I can't wait to go home. The thing that I think is hurting us is that I don't like talking on the phone very much. I talk to my mom for like 20 minutes everyday, and that's enough for me, but I know that I don't call Steven and Stephanie like I used to, but I think about it and they don't call me as much either, I think it's my fault though.
I am gonna get off here before I start to cry again.
I believe that we all have gaurdian angels, they don't necessarily make it so that we don't do ANYTHING wrong, but they help us through the hard times. Your angel may change from one day to the next. I think that some days Jessy is my angel, I truly do, I think that's why when we are apart I don't know what to do with myself sometimes. She has helped me through SO much and I feel like sometimes I don't thank her enough for it. I love you so much!!!
I called Stephanie today because I needed someone to calm me down. She did a good job alright. A few minutes of talking to her and I was ready to go again. I can't wait to go home. The thing that I think is hurting us is that I don't like talking on the phone very much. I talk to my mom for like 20 minutes everyday, and that's enough for me, but I know that I don't call Steven and Stephanie like I used to, but I think about it and they don't call me as much either, I think it's my fault though.
I am gonna get off here before I start to cry again.