Jun 27, 2006 16:28
ugh.
i really hate this summer so far.
i'm moving, and my house is complete chaos, and there's the fear of starting over.
my dog is probably dead right now, because she just went to the vet to be put asleep because of her kidney failure and the move would be too stressful for her.
my grandmother is insane and is going to live with us still and she sucks up all of my moms time and energy.
my brother who is the one person in my family who doesn't bring any issues is going off to college and is staying here until august. so i have only one month left with him.
and my dad is too obsessed with going to Wesley and he makes me talk about my feelings too much and he either seems like he doesn't care or that he cares way too much.
and i hate saying goodbye to people and that's all i've been doing. you can only say "i can't live without you" so many times before you just want to explode.
and my best friend is going crazy and is obsessed with acid and she has a new best friend and i'm too mad and passive to even talk to her or call her and tell her that i'm pissed.
and despite all of these things, i can't even cry about it because i don't even have the energy.
and i have less than 24 hours left in this town and all i can think about is how much i want to leave and erase everything. i hate being sappy and sad and all of those token depressing things. we've had jezzie for 13 years, and i love her so much, but since i don't want to be sad anymore, all i can think about is getting a new puppy that little and doesn't shed as much and one that i can carry around in a purse with me.
shit my dad and brother are home.
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