And then there were two...
lets see. halloween was an excellent time. mike o and i were UK punk rockers. haha we were awesome and had random mosh pits in the road! we went trick or treating..there was probably 10 of us and it was hilarious. we are those stupid loud teenagers thta all parents hate giving candy to because they think we are too old. but man. "if we put forth the effort to get into a costume then why cant we go out" (quote from one of my buds last night). its true! i mean bon and hai ever taped their boobs! i wish i got a before and after shot heh. we didnt t.o.t. for long because bons mom wanted to have this bon fire thing. it was nice sitting around the fire. though when it was just kels, nick, siler, alex, and i it was a tad awkward. hm i still have to get used to dan lee and katherine touching..he seemed a tad overprotective at hais. katherine and i, like always, gave eachother a peck and he seemed really mad. but if it didnt mean anything liek that then why can angry. mayeb he was kidding but he didnt really seem like it..*shrug* hell get over that stuff hah.
mike and i had the brilliant idea to not shower or change for school today..THAT IDEA TOTALLY SUCKED! for the mere fact that i wanted to cry because i was so dirty. haha. it was fun though i must admit. but next time i do somethign liek that im going to incorporate showering somewhere in it. gah! it took a while to clean my hair but getting out of the shower i felt soo good. i couldnt even stay after today because i felt so dirty..well and i had cramps but thats besides the point.
man ive been so happy lately i realized. and i only realized this because i got a wicked burst of anger at the movie night. but besides for that ive just been estatic on the inside. no matter what movie i seem to be in im always happy. of course with random stress but underneath it im just so content. it feels as though im floating through life. its a nice feeling.
i have decided to need to spend more time with my friends. i mean without nick. we are attached to the hip it seems. not a bad thing its just im too lazy to make plans so im just like "nick lets chill, im bored" so we just watch movies and do nothing. but i miss my friends. not in big groups though. they are just too busy for me now. but like on friday being with nick leah aaron and kelsey it was just nice. hanging around at the park being insane like our usual selves.its nice. i mean i love spending time with nickster but i feel as though im stealing him away from his friends or something. or that people just assume where theres nick theres me and where theres me theres nick. i dont like people to assume. so tonight i think im goign to the movies with a bunch of people because nicks mom is being all craZy (i just think its because nick and i have spent the last 4-5 days with eachother haha) and making him do college essays.
hm..soo saturday is 6 months...very very weird. very funny how i didnt realize it was our anniversary and he did..damn im such a man. thats half a year..very weird...damn these high school relationships filling so much time. not that they are bad its just idk. i have mixed feelings. man i just cant help but think about my love rant. it makes me so mad when people are all "oOoO its been a month and i love you!" and then they get dumped and form that so called "love" into hate. i mean it isnt any of my business of course its jsut so silly to me. idk. melissa said she knows i love nick but...hm..love is an odd word. its only 4 letters but its suppose to mean so much. with it being thrown around so much its slowly losing its meaning. the way i see it is if the person im dating knows my love speal then when/if i do say it its going to mean sooo much more.
random note. I LOVE the sound of leaves cruching undearneath my feet. its one of my favorite sounds in the world. it just..i cant even describe it! next time you are walking try to only step on leaves and listen...try to listen what it sounds like. its so hard to do!
mike and i had the brilliant idea to not shower or change for school today..THAT IDEA TOTALLY SUCKED! for the mere fact that i wanted to cry because i was so dirty. haha. it was fun though i must admit. but next time i do somethign liek that im going to incorporate showering somewhere in it. gah! it took a while to clean my hair but getting out of the shower i felt soo good. i couldnt even stay after today because i felt so dirty..well and i had cramps but thats besides the point.
man ive been so happy lately i realized. and i only realized this because i got a wicked burst of anger at the movie night. but besides for that ive just been estatic on the inside. no matter what movie i seem to be in im always happy. of course with random stress but underneath it im just so content. it feels as though im floating through life. its a nice feeling.
i have decided to need to spend more time with my friends. i mean without nick. we are attached to the hip it seems. not a bad thing its just im too lazy to make plans so im just like "nick lets chill, im bored" so we just watch movies and do nothing. but i miss my friends. not in big groups though. they are just too busy for me now. but like on friday being with nick leah aaron and kelsey it was just nice. hanging around at the park being insane like our usual selves.its nice. i mean i love spending time with nickster but i feel as though im stealing him away from his friends or something. or that people just assume where theres nick theres me and where theres me theres nick. i dont like people to assume. so tonight i think im goign to the movies with a bunch of people because nicks mom is being all craZy (i just think its because nick and i have spent the last 4-5 days with eachother haha) and making him do college essays.
hm..soo saturday is 6 months...very very weird. very funny how i didnt realize it was our anniversary and he did..damn im such a man. thats half a year..very weird...damn these high school relationships filling so much time. not that they are bad its just idk. i have mixed feelings. man i just cant help but think about my love rant. it makes me so mad when people are all "oOoO its been a month and i love you!" and then they get dumped and form that so called "love" into hate. i mean it isnt any of my business of course its jsut so silly to me. idk. melissa said she knows i love nick but...hm..love is an odd word. its only 4 letters but its suppose to mean so much. with it being thrown around so much its slowly losing its meaning. the way i see it is if the person im dating knows my love speal then when/if i do say it its going to mean sooo much more.
random note. I LOVE the sound of leaves cruching undearneath my feet. its one of my favorite sounds in the world. it just..i cant even describe it! next time you are walking try to only step on leaves and listen...try to listen what it sounds like. its so hard to do!