Hmm
Okay so I know I shouldn't be upset about what Juli told me tonight but somehow...I am.
She told me that Matt (my ex ex) bought a ring for his gf and is gonna propose on Christmas morning and the ring cost like $5000. Blah blah blah. Considering how Matt treated me and how much of an ass he was and is, this shouldn't bother me AT ALL but it does. And that bothers me more.
If I hadn't dumped him 6 years ago, my life now would never have existed. So many chains of events never would have started if I hadn't had the guts to dump him. So why is now that I decide to get upset over something that has nothing to do with me at all?! Oh god does this bug me! I shouldn't even care but it's like, "Oh look! I'm a loser! Nobody wants me for the rest of their life." Maybe it's all the stupid snow outside. Maybe it's the gray skies that plague the winter weather. Maybe it's because my bf hasn't been up to visit since September. Whatever the hell it is, I would like to get over it and stop being jealous or whatever stupid emotion this is. God!
She told me that Matt (my ex ex) bought a ring for his gf and is gonna propose on Christmas morning and the ring cost like $5000. Blah blah blah. Considering how Matt treated me and how much of an ass he was and is, this shouldn't bother me AT ALL but it does. And that bothers me more.
If I hadn't dumped him 6 years ago, my life now would never have existed. So many chains of events never would have started if I hadn't had the guts to dump him. So why is now that I decide to get upset over something that has nothing to do with me at all?! Oh god does this bug me! I shouldn't even care but it's like, "Oh look! I'm a loser! Nobody wants me for the rest of their life." Maybe it's all the stupid snow outside. Maybe it's the gray skies that plague the winter weather. Maybe it's because my bf hasn't been up to visit since September. Whatever the hell it is, I would like to get over it and stop being jealous or whatever stupid emotion this is. God!