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Well lets see umm well prom was aewsome it was so much fun i thank my boyfriend for that!
But that's not what's bothering my whole week has been hell!! ok ok If you know me then you would know that I have a really bad ditching problem!! That Im ashamed to talk about! So on monday me, rick, leila, and armando ditched school. We all went a whole lot of different places, but when I called home at the end of the day to say I was coming home I find from my sister that my mom found out that I was ditching the whole day and she was coming for me at the school. at the time I was'nt at school I was at armando's getting some pillows that I had left there over the weekend, So I rushed home and when I got home my mom was standing at the door waiting for me! She started yelling at me all crazy and said she knew about all the place I went and I paniced and I denied it that is when she called rick and asked him if i was with him and rick told my mom everything! So then she started pushing me and pushing me until I was cornered into the wall of my kitchen! Then she started slaping me very hard she would stop! It was horrible! I had gotten a bloody nose and a cut lip. Then she started yelling at me and saying I was a bad person and said if I wanted to leave then I should leave cause there was the door! So I walked down the hall into my room and started packing clothes, then my mom called for me to clean up the blood that I had dripped on the kitchen floor. So as I was walking down the hall to leave ( cause it always seems that all I do is hurt her) she asks me where do I think Im going And I told her that I didn't want to hurt anyone anymore, then she tells me the only place Im going is hell ! So she keeps yelling at me all kinds of horrible things that are so awful, I just walk back into my room and just stay in there the whole night!
I did'nt blame rick or my sister, it was'nt there fault! the only one whose fault it was was mine!:( I feel like all I do is hurt people or make them sad or mad Im really sorry for making so many people upset!
Tuesday went by and I was ok!
But this morning when I got up my mom started yelling at me some more and got me very sad so when I went to school I did'nt feel like talking so when my boyfriend armando came he asked me what was wrong and I told him don't worry about it and I had told him about what had happen on monday so he knew I was going through all that! So I did'nt know if he got mad or not but he told me"You Always Tell Me That"! And it seemed like he yelled it kind of and it made me really sad! So then we stopped talking until afterschool when my friend Ashely called Armando to talk to me and I tryed to make a conversation with him but it diid'nt seem like it was working soAshley asked him if he was happy that I made Theispain and he said " oh I guess " That had made me feel really bad! ( but waaa whoo i made it!!) So then he walked off and told my friend Leila that he did'nt feel like talkin to me! So I was leaving and I asked leila to ask him if he would want to come with me and he said no, I felt really bad, so I told leila for him to come and talk to me and so he did and I asked him what was wrong and let's just say our conversation ended up with me walking of sayinng good bye cause I did'nt feel like arguing So I told myself if he really wanted to talk to me he would may be come after me and talk but no my week has been shit all week! Im so sorry to all of the people I hurt im sorry! I feel like I can't dp anything rite! To all you blievers out there can you please pray for me! I just don't know what to do!
*Becca