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wow i have lots of shit to do and some crucial finals to pass. life is lovely. and im working. first day today, it will be fine in two weeks once finals are over, i didnt plan on starting to work right in the middle of them. and if its not ok, then im quiting. im glad ive settled on that. but im thinking in the future work will provide a good escape...even though today was kinda long. chris said exactly what i needed to hear last night, it was so perfect i cried...whats new? im so emotional and he swears that its him that makes me cry...not so. i just cant stop it sometimes. its the only way i can release all the tension that builds up inside me because of school and just life, im sure eventually ill be able to relax...so instead of going running tonight, which is what i really WANT and NEEEEED to do, im gonna get some stuff done so i feel better. even though running would make me feel good too,but it wouldnt be as rewarding at the point in time. it was just the decision i had to make. haha, that reminds me of the plaque they have at school board meetings " whats popular for carlsbad is not always right, whats right for carlsbad is not always popular". im also just gonna sit here, calm down, and eat some freakin food. i was running on a muffin all day...thats just a cupcake without the frosting!oh ya, philosophy can kiss my ass, my professor sucks balls!....