The meltdown.

[becca1326]

Oh I had a meltdown with the children today. Now I feel guilty about it. It was a horrible scene. I have been so tired lately. I take care of the kids, the house, meals, do the grocery shopping, laundry. You name it, I pretty much do it. I make sure everything is ready for Chris. If he needs work cloths, I make sure that he has clean work clothes.

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[charmedroses]

omg that whole scene reminded me of when I was single with the two boys. The poop, the crying, everything. Which makes me think that Chris REALLY needs to step it up a notch and make sure u get a break. One night/day a week is NOT going to kill him. He works 60 hour a week blah blah blah don't wanna hear it. Don't. You take care of the kids 24/7 damn near non-stop. He can give you a break for YOU time. I know I'm one to talk, having my own Chris to contend with :P But even he admits that there's no way in hell he could do what I do and that there's no way in hell he'd switch places with me

[becca1326]

It has been rough around here. The only time he seems to be paying any attention is when I am freaking out on him or to the point of tears. Then he will pay attention and be helpful. It shouldnt have to come to that. We are going to have to have a major talk one day soon. It is hurting our relationship to keep going on this way. Its affecting our kids

[charmedroses]

yea he's not going to get this bonding chance back. And the early years are soooooooo important for them and how the kids learn to develop relationships.

I was so pumped on thursday after the boys rugby practice. It started getting windy and cold at the end so I took the baby back to the car and was going to run and get a carwash and then come pick them and Chris up after. But when I got to the car I realized rugby was over in 5 minutes so I might as well just hang out. So practice ended and Chris had thought I left so he chased the boys around in the field and toss the rugby ball around with them. I was so happy to see them doing stuff together that I totally just sat in the car and let them play for about 10 more minutes. I would have just left and done the car wash but the weather was getting kinda crappy so I finally waved them down so they knew I was still there. But I really really want them all to have more moments like that!

[becca1326]

That was a wonderful moment to witness. It gave me goosebumps to read about it. :)Its too bad the weather got crazy. Im sure the boys loved throwing the ball around with Chris.

I hope that my Chris wakes up and realizes that he is losing that bonding time with his children. This stage wont last forever and he could lose his chance to bond with them.

[charmedroses]

yea I decided recently that the only way to get Chris bonding with them was to drag him outta the house with all of us to someplace that doesn't contain electronic devices :P So now I always drag him to the rugby games and to the park. Of course, it helps that he's not working at the moment cuz he lost his camp job when he hurt his foot and then break-up hit. :/ Once he's back to work...who knows.

[becca1326]

Its a good idea. Chris is the same way. If I can drag him out of the house and away from the cell phone he is really into whatever is going on. I know the extra money is great but I wish he would work a bit less. More time with us. Or if he cant the the time we spend together be more quality time.

[charmedroses]

Yea I always get mad at myself for excusing my Chris from having near to nothing to do with us cuz he works so much and needs his downtime. I REALLY have to make myself stop seeing it that way. I mean, even if it's just an hour here or there it's worth it. Letting how much he works (when he's actually working) make hanging with his family an inconvenience isn't working for me and its not fair. It really doesn't even make sense. Winter is always tougher cuz it's harder to drag him away...we don't really have anywhere to go and Ethan's been too young for the winter weather. Next winter should be much better I'm thinking cuz Ethan will be able to go out too. :)