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So i decided that it was time for a new journal because my old one is just hmm...what's the word?...old! I just thought it was time for a change which will compliment my crazy ever-changing life as i know it! hehe...so here i go!
Last night my band lead worship at celebration...wow! I've never experienced worship in that way before. You see, the thing about celebration is that people go there because they have a choice and they desire to worship...that's not always the case at church. So it was such a blessing to lead like 900 worshippers just dancing away, clapping, shouting, and even crying.
I was shaking. At first i thought it was the nerves, but i soon realized that i was shaking in the presence of God. As i sang, my eyes becamse teary because i was so blessed by the worshippers and by God's awesome power. It was the strangest yet most amazing thing to me. Like i said, worship has never been like that before, where i am just so overwhelmed by God's majesty.
So the song we played right before the speaker came up was Christ Alone...it talks about God's wrath being satisfied when Jesus died, even though we deserved it...I really had the desire to play this song even though the boys didn't like it cuz it was a hymm...actually Clint didn't like it because it told a story and so his opinion swayed the boys' opinions....but for some reason i just felt like God wanted us to play it. So as the speaker came up, he looked back at the band and was floored because he was planning to speak on everything that song spoke of. Oh, i loved what he said about God's wrath and the death in hell that we deserve. And it is important to know the severity of sin's penalty so that we know exactly what we are saved from...So that was just awesome...
So we played like 10 songs in all, and when we were done and celebration was over people started mingling....BOBBY and wil came up on stage to say hi...ok you see....bobby is like my "worship leader idol" ---haha if those even exist. When i was just a freshman, his band lead celebration all the time and i was just like...a;sldkjfljflkj!!! you are amazing! and he was actually the one who stirred up the hype about me so that my band could play. So for him to be there was totally sweet. And guess what?!....my fair oaks kids showed up! I dont know how they found out i was playing...but they were all there...apparently steven told chase and chase told matt and matt told the girls...and POOF! they were there. I didn't see steven...actually, it didn't even cross my mind that he wasn't there, until he randomly decided to call me after like two months. He was at celebration but had to leave early, but he called to congratulate me and tell me that i never call him. Well i said that he never calls me...hmmm i wonder why...maybe it's because he feels guilty about leading me on and then hooking up with Hannah...Well technically he didn't lead me on...because leading someone on is more like you get them to like you...but i never really liked him...He was just a good friend...and i missed his friend-ness. But anyways...he wants to hang out...and i think him and Hannah broke up...haha Which is fine, i think he's totally a wonderful person...just hormonal and i like to see the good in everyone. I only feel ok about hanging out with him because i know that my emotions are totally strong and i know where i stand when it comes to him and me. ie: nothing's going on. It would be nice to get my lil friend Steven back so that we can record this summer. pfft.
So...YOWZA! God is so amazing, so so amazing. I can't believe he uses me in such crazy ways that i am totally undeserving of. What an awesome God.