The comings and goings of a girl named d
Okay…so things have been rather humorous lately. Humorous in a ‘no rhyme or reason’ kind of way.
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1. I have been completely overwhelmed by school. Level One of Photoshop and Illustrator were so easy that I could do them both while working 2 jobs. Now in Level Two, I feel that I’m drowning. I find myself agitated over my homework and pulling out my hair. I don’t even know why I’m taking these course other than I thought that they would help me out finding a more creative job. Discovery: A designer, I am not. I’m thinking of reexamining where I’m going with this school thing and dropping my courses next semester until I have more of a more solid plan.
2. I had a really bad cold/flu/sinus icky snotty thing this week that totally ripped me apart at the seams. It turns out that laying around your apartment trapped inside your head makes you spend hour upon hour examining where your life is going. Which brings me too… *drumroll please*
3. I’ve quit my job. Yes, my day job. It has been a year and 3 months in the works but all of a sudden I just lost it. I had an excellent hour and a half conversation with one of my bosses over coffee where I explained that I might stab someone if I stay any longer. She kindly moved the knife away, patted me on the back and now I have to make it more official on Monday when the Executive Vice-President returns from holiday. What is my game plan you might be asking? Well, I have had one job interview this past Monday and have a second one with another company next Tuesday. If neither of these pan out (which is quite likely) then I will be temping and eating beans. Temping is not the most horrible of options as it would be great to try out some different industries and gain my lost confidence again.
4. Urban Outfitters has hit Vancouver. I went in and bought some things I can’t afford in a final goodbye to the world of spending money including a yellow beret. I will wear it while I’m eating me beans.
5. Mr. T has been very supportive during all my silly breakdowns and I’m sure he is scratching his head wondering what the fuck he has gotten himself into. He has made me laugh and smile through the breakdowns and help me to organize my thoughts and make a lot of these decisions more easily. hehhe *waves at skinny nerd boy spying at my journal*
6. I have gotten drunk and lost my final brolly. It had to happen eventually and a night of vodka drinking and dirty soul dancing to celebrate the monumental quitting of the job is a good way to part with the broken bastard. The rain is coming down in sheets today and I have to trek to Burnaby to get to class. Wet feet are inevitable and the thought of it while sitting in my warm apartment with the sniffles makes me want to curl up and hide from the world today. hehe
7. Despite the fact that this list has a somber tone, I’m actually quite happy and positive right now. Sometimes shit is meant to hit the fan for a reason and I’m feeling good about where my life is heading.