Interviews ... with jobs and boys
Vancouver 2010 (The Olympics) called. I have apparently made the short list of applicants and am now being asked to come and meet with them for a second interview. Well, that was what my telephone message said when I avoided the call and I’m currently sitting at my desk sweating in absolute fear of what this means.
Within the past week, since my initial scheduled telephone interview, I got excited and then I got nervous and then I wrote it all off. I’ve made about a million excuses why I shouldn’t go for a second interview or take the job if it should be presented. The most convincing excuses I could come up with are,
- Could I possibly swing starting school in the new year AND starting a new job?
- Maybe I should just stick out one more year at my job, I’ll be getting a raise in the new year and I already know how to take their criticisms by now
- Maybe I can make it til one more bonus…
Of course these excuses are all a huge pile of sweltering bs. The truth of the matter is that I’m absolutely petrified about leaving my job. I know that my job is the equivalent of an abusive relationship and I’m doing the ‘well, maybe he’ll change’ bit but there are only so many times you can hear that you are stupid before you begin to believe it. Will a new job think I’m stupid too? What if they do? I’m scared that it would prove that I am.
If I don’t at least go to the interview I’d be the biggest hypocrite on the earth though. I’ve been doing a little ‘winter cleaning’ on my life lately making HUGE changes and taking chances that I wouldn’t normally make and I know that the most important change is right under my nose… I think I need to take a chance.
Speaking of chances, since the last dude didn’t call me since our date (I’m beginning to see a trend here) I’ve decided that I’m not going to let it get me down and am going on another date tonight. I really hate dating but I know that in order to meet someone I have to get myself out there.. dating is kinda like a job interview actually, you put yourself out there and hope that it works out. If it doesn’t you learn more about what you may or may not want and you get more experience for your next ‘interview’ and hopefully that one will work out.
If there is anyone on my friendslist who IS single (I honestly don’t think that there is!) and who finds dating just as discouraging as I do, this is a really good article that my friend sent to me today and may god be with you, hahhahahttp://lifestyle.msn.com/Relationships/Dating/ArticleIV2.aspx?cp-documentid=1286684>1=8881&wa=wsignin1.0