Life is all about highs and lows...
Things have been very busy and rather difficult lately, hence I have been neglecting updating my journal.
Here is a rundown of the highlights and lowlights of the past couple of weeks.
+ Finally being able to afford to eat something other than beans
+ My second job at the gym being actually kinda fun on the weekends
+ 14 more days until I’m on a plane to Toronto for my regretfully brief 5 day vacation
+ Having my brother’s lady from the island and her roomie coming to visit me for a couple of days in November so we can see Bonnie Prince Billy together in a church (of course reminding me of the Microphones in the Music Gallery in Toronto which is basically a church turned music hall which was definitely the best gig ever!! I have also been blessed to see hayden play in a church and I do believe that my socks just might have been blown off then too)
+ Mario Party 4 being found and purchased from a bargain bin
+ Buying 7 Sonic the Hedgehog games (re-released by Nintendo in one game) for $19.99! (okay that is two highlights that have to do with video games)
+ Finally reconnecting with my gay husband from the ship after almost a year of being off the ship. Oddly, we both lost each other’s contact details at the same time and found each other through friends trying to reconnect us.
+ ANTM starting tonight and the Office starting tomorrow (the finale killed me, i literally swooned)
- HJ being just another Vancouver guy (don’t get me started on Vancouver men) which of course makes me feel silly thinking that there might have been something there.
- Running on sheer coffee power due to being constantly tired from working 7 days a week (as well as Monday nights at the gym being absolutely dreadful)
- Battles with self worth, the mirror, lonliness and mental stability
- Knowing full well that I’m a passionate person trapped at a passionless job
- Feeling like I’m going absolute fucking bonkers from the ongoing debate between going to school part time to update my skills (and most likely trying to land more sr. medical roles) or taking a risk and trying to change careers entirely
- My friend’s father dying and coming face to face yet again with my anxiety of death and dying (I think that I told my parents I loved them 8 times in my phone call to them last night) - Crying…. So much crying. There is something wrong when there is more water falling out of my eyes than from the Vancouver sky