What's been going on...
** I’ve been extreeeeeeemely broke. Unfortunately I did not prepare for this brokenness by stocking the fridge and all I had in my cupboards were big bags of unsoaked beans. For the past 4 days all I’ve been eating 2 meals a day of bland beans which I will be continuing to do for the next 7 days. Clearly hampering my love of legumes.
** I’ve taken on a second job at a gym as a receptionist. The pluses are that I don’t have to touch anything gross (no cleaning), I get paid quite alright for a part time job and I will be getting paid on alternate weeks than my current job. Unfortunately the negatives are the fact that it is on the north shore; the people I work with are all girls that are catty, younger than me (this scares me), and pumped filled with plastic (boobs/lips/faces ); and they are not training me very well and I usually just feel like crying all evening. Luckily, after this week of training, I will only be working 3 shifts a week.
** After moaning and groaning about boys never calling me, I received a phone message yesterday from ‘Half Japanese’ (or HJ as I will refer to him in my journal). I met HJ last weekend while laughing it up with a bunch of random drunk people at a dance night I got dragged to by other random drunk people after Of Montreal. He was really nice and actually only one year my jr. (hahha, this is a big thing for me) with a car and a job working with disadvantaged kids (again, a big thing for me). I haven’t called him back yet and I don’t know if it is because it kind of pisses me off that it took him 6 days to call me (after he was like ‘you are going to get so sick of hearing from me’… which I hear often and is never true unless by sick of hearing from them they mean never hearing from them, but i digress) or the fact that I have a crippling fear of men. The thought of calling him back makes me want to puke mouth a little bit but so does the idea of meeting someone and dating someone blah blah blah. Of course i'm totaly jumping the gun a whole hellovalot… but when I meet someone I get filled with such fear and anxiety that they will actually like me and want to start something up with me. My internal self likes to sabotage things before anything begins. I think that I’ve only been in two relationships because neither of those guys would put up with my shit of pushing them away.
** Vancouver has been hot and lovely yet the ground is starting to quickly fill with lovely brown crunchy leaves. I love to take leaves and crunch them in my hands or stomp on them and hear them rustle under my feet. BC has much bigger leaves than in Ontario and when I see reaaaaally huge leaves (I’m talking twice as big as my head) I pick them up and carry them around twirling them all around like a little kid.
** I’ve been having problems beating the end level in single player Mario Party and it is pissing me off! Hahha. I’m such a geek.