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[because_im_not]

i hate that i'd make the same mistakes
i hate that you'd allow me to push you away
i guess you knew better
its like my hands were cut off
my arms grew a numbness
what did you do to me
was it the force of your eyes
did you find your gem
was it me?

did i have to walk through 50mph winds?

the wind was still
as your heart
my knowledge was still
as my heart

you've caught me now
i'm naked.
you're allowed to rape me..
you've already raped me.
was i willing..
to let you have your way with me?
or was it beyond control?

i'm happy.
does everything happen for a reason?
do mistakes teach lessons?

my mind is rushed.
but i've been paying attention.
i feel beautiful.

i'm sober.
content.

is that possible?
i've been so naive.
i've been so unattentive.

does it matter now?

just kiss me.
won't you?
"on that midnight street..
sweep me off my feet."

thats all i'll ever need.

i am me.
and you know me.
and thats really scary.
you. know. me.
i'm just as shocked as you.

i never gave anyone that air to breathe.. and now you consume it.
lets dance.

i love you.