Announcment: Nervous breakdowns are now scheduled, buy your tickets early
Nervous breakdowns scheduled: the friday after thanksgiving. AJ leaves and I must finish up my final projects for the semester because AJ's scary board meeting is scheduled the following Tuesday. Nervous breakdown #2 scheduled on Tuesday whether or not AJ gets back into school, some heavy crying will be going on.
After declaring that it would never be done, I forgave Robert at 2 o clock in the morning. I was about to go to sleep when I noticed the closet door was open, so I got up and closed it. Why? Because Robert is a little girl and can't go to sleep with the closet door open. It became a habit for me to close the door b/c I was over there so much. I realized what I was doing and sat and thought. What he did, he did over two years ago, it wasn't right and it definitely affected who I am but it's in the past and there's nothing he or I can do about it. He apologized and called himself a hypocrite, both things I know are difficult for him to do. What else can I expect him to do?? So I wrote him an email telling him I wasn't angry at him anymore and to talk to me. Just now he IM'ed me, he honestly made me feel bad for him b/c he's such a little kid sometimes. Here's the intro to that:
CRZY ANTIC: you know i can be dumb sometimes right
Butterkup42: oh yes
CRZY ANTIC: uuummmm
CRZY ANTIC: i didnt know we were mad at each other
CRZY ANTIC: i dont know what i said
Butterkup42: I know you didn't
CRZY ANTIC: and i dont know if you got mad at me for whatever it was i said
CRZY ANTIC: uuummmm........i appologize for being clueless
So AJ was right and I couldn't be mad at him forever. *sigh* wouldn't it be easier if I was though? Damn my conscience.
My paper is almost done. Thank goodness. I'm watching Pride and Prejudice as well...I love this mini-series!
After declaring that it would never be done, I forgave Robert at 2 o clock in the morning. I was about to go to sleep when I noticed the closet door was open, so I got up and closed it. Why? Because Robert is a little girl and can't go to sleep with the closet door open. It became a habit for me to close the door b/c I was over there so much. I realized what I was doing and sat and thought. What he did, he did over two years ago, it wasn't right and it definitely affected who I am but it's in the past and there's nothing he or I can do about it. He apologized and called himself a hypocrite, both things I know are difficult for him to do. What else can I expect him to do?? So I wrote him an email telling him I wasn't angry at him anymore and to talk to me. Just now he IM'ed me, he honestly made me feel bad for him b/c he's such a little kid sometimes. Here's the intro to that:
CRZY ANTIC: you know i can be dumb sometimes right
Butterkup42: oh yes
CRZY ANTIC: uuummmm
CRZY ANTIC: i didnt know we were mad at each other
CRZY ANTIC: i dont know what i said
Butterkup42: I know you didn't
CRZY ANTIC: and i dont know if you got mad at me for whatever it was i said
CRZY ANTIC: uuummmm........i appologize for being clueless
So AJ was right and I couldn't be mad at him forever. *sigh* wouldn't it be easier if I was though? Damn my conscience.
My paper is almost done. Thank goodness. I'm watching Pride and Prejudice as well...I love this mini-series!