Jan 28, 2005 23:29
Stephen Dunn- Between Angels
Between angels, on this earth
absurdly between angels, I
try to navigate
in the bluesy middle ground
of desire and withdrawal,
in the industrial air,
among the bittersweet
efforts of people to connect,
make sense, endure.
The angels out there,
what are they?
Old helpers, half-believed,
or dazzling better selves,
imagined,
that I turn away from
as if I preferred
all the ordinary, dispiriting
tasks at hand?
I shop in the cold
neon aisles
thinking of pleasure,
I kiss my paycheck
a mournful kiss goodbye
thinking of pleasure,
in the evening replenish
my drink, make a choice
to read or love or watch,
and increasingly I watch.
I do not mind living
like this. I cannot bear
living like this.
Oh, everything's true
at different times
in the capacious day,
just as I don't forget
and always forget
half the people in the world
are dispossessed.
Here chestnut oaks
and tenements
make their unequal claims.
Someone thinks of betrayal.
A child spills her milk;
I'm on my knees cleaning it up-
sponge, squeeze, I change nothing,
just move it around.
The inconsequential floor
is beginning to shine.