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"if the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more
I would still have you..."
im sitting here cryin my eyes out, wishing i could scream out to the world how much i want my family back together.
my mom texted me yesterday morning with "hi con, i really miss you." i called her back and all i could hear was her trying to cover up her crying. i cried. hard. she said this is the first time that shes ever been away from us on new years.. it was hard. i miss her so much. i get really emotional when i talk to my mom.we never really conversate for more than two mins before one of us starts to break down. you don really realize what you miss until its gone.. i miss her so much. we never really have super deep conversations with each other, there was always a missing gap. sometimes i wish i could fill that gap but i just dont have the balls to. i dont know how to reach to her and tell her how much i love her an dmiss her so much. every mother needs her daughter and every daughter needs her mother. i never missed her until shes gone and when shes here, shes just here. i just want to tell her deeply how much i love her and miss her. i really wish she was here. i try to be strong about this but for some reason i cant.
my dad came home from felixs dads house yesterday and gave us all a really tight and strong hug. i could feel that hes feeling something inside that cant be expressed.
they said theyre separated, but i can tell they both love each other so much.. maybe they just need a break from eachother to realize that they actually do need each other. god i just hope one day things will be normal again.
..
its new years, i should be smiling.
im starting to hate holidays.
I would still have you..."
im sitting here cryin my eyes out, wishing i could scream out to the world how much i want my family back together.
my mom texted me yesterday morning with "hi con, i really miss you." i called her back and all i could hear was her trying to cover up her crying. i cried. hard. she said this is the first time that shes ever been away from us on new years.. it was hard. i miss her so much. i get really emotional when i talk to my mom.we never really conversate for more than two mins before one of us starts to break down. you don really realize what you miss until its gone.. i miss her so much. we never really have super deep conversations with each other, there was always a missing gap. sometimes i wish i could fill that gap but i just dont have the balls to. i dont know how to reach to her and tell her how much i love her an dmiss her so much. every mother needs her daughter and every daughter needs her mother. i never missed her until shes gone and when shes here, shes just here. i just want to tell her deeply how much i love her and miss her. i really wish she was here. i try to be strong about this but for some reason i cant.
my dad came home from felixs dads house yesterday and gave us all a really tight and strong hug. i could feel that hes feeling something inside that cant be expressed.
they said theyre separated, but i can tell they both love each other so much.. maybe they just need a break from eachother to realize that they actually do need each other. god i just hope one day things will be normal again.
..
its new years, i should be smiling.
im starting to hate holidays.