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lately my mom has been asking me strange questions.. "do you ever just get sad and cry" or "do you ever feel sad for no reason?" i usually never know what to say so i tell her "its probably the weather and the gloominess". but just hearing her ask those questions makes me really uncomfortably sad. im her only daughter yet i really don know how to truly express to her how i feel and show her that if she needs me ill be there. our relationship has been complicated. since 13, ive never felt comfortable really letting out things.. not sure why.. but im just scared if i dont ill wont ever too.. i realized that being a woman is very complicated.. shes moving back to arizona, and then she wants to live in vietnam for 6months...
i see her cry all the time at night but i really dont know how to console her.. i love both my parents and i fuckin hate hearing them talk about the relationship cause honestly .... i dont know what to say and i really dont wanna hear anything.
i dont know... !!
i feel so useless sometimes... i feel so locked up inside that its confusing me.. like i know somethings there... but i dont know what the hell it is.. i just wish somehow she would smile like she use to again.. man every fucking time i write or think about her it makes me ache inside.. ..
it sucks being the oldest... you just know damn too much.
i see her cry all the time at night but i really dont know how to console her.. i love both my parents and i fuckin hate hearing them talk about the relationship cause honestly .... i dont know what to say and i really dont wanna hear anything.
i dont know... !!
i feel so useless sometimes... i feel so locked up inside that its confusing me.. like i know somethings there... but i dont know what the hell it is.. i just wish somehow she would smile like she use to again.. man every fucking time i write or think about her it makes me ache inside.. ..
it sucks being the oldest... you just know damn too much.