my four page letter to you
Dear Significant other,
There is so many things that I wanted to tell you but, for some reason, I could not bring myself to do it. Yes, that means the cat got my tongue and I was left silent on the other end. I do not even know where to begin. Ok, I am going to start off admitting that YES, it is my fault we are left in this state of mind because I did not think before I spoke. But hey, I am only human. I make mistakes too, and at times a lot of it. That's my bad on my part and I know for a solid fact that I can't do anything about that. I cannot turn back time and rewind everything to make it all gravy. With that fact, I cannot say anything to you but sorry (whether you believe me or not, I do not know). I know I called you names and said numerous hurtful things; things that even if i wanted to.. cannot take back. It's been said. With that thing that i blurted out, I do not expect you to believe me when I say that it isn't true (even though it isn't). Here I am telling you that everything that we went through, and all those times that we were together is genuinely true and for a goddamn fact is not a lie. IT'S NOT A LIE. I do not know how else to tell you. I don't know. I've said it a bajillion million times before and here I am saying it again. I haven't given up trying to convince you otherwise. Fact is, it is my fault, it is. I know it. With that, I know you think I'm crazy and psycho but so be it. I don't really care. So, I guess that's it. I'll leave you alone now and don't worry I REALLY WILL THIS TIME. NO matter what I say there's no convincing you. This is my last ode to you: I "jesus" you.
-Erika