bad day
i was offered a position as cafe supervisor at another book store today. not even that cheered me up.
i had horrible nightmares again last night. i'm looking up ways to make them go away.
my mom is really sick and i cant get in touch with her. the last email i got from her was about someone moving her suicide note in her sleep. she's been off most her psych medication for a little while now because it's killing her liver, something like hepC. she has diabetes, smokes 3pks/day, eats fast food, and drinks 2 pots of coffee/day. *sigh* i'm living in the future, but i cant imagine what it would be like to not have a mom.
my mind isnt cooperating today. at work i couldnt remember shit. i feel a sense of impending doom, sadness, anger, and nausea.
christian comes home today FINALLY. he'll rub my head and make it all better.
i dont feel good.
i had horrible nightmares again last night. i'm looking up ways to make them go away.
my mom is really sick and i cant get in touch with her. the last email i got from her was about someone moving her suicide note in her sleep. she's been off most her psych medication for a little while now because it's killing her liver, something like hepC. she has diabetes, smokes 3pks/day, eats fast food, and drinks 2 pots of coffee/day. *sigh* i'm living in the future, but i cant imagine what it would be like to not have a mom.
my mind isnt cooperating today. at work i couldnt remember shit. i feel a sense of impending doom, sadness, anger, and nausea.
christian comes home today FINALLY. he'll rub my head and make it all better.
i dont feel good.