freedom

[bebe_the_queen]

yesterday i was feeling anxious about having to do something and last night i had a dream. it's wierd, but i knew that if i went ahead and did the thing i was "supposed" to do i would end up drinking today. so in my dream i was getting high, then i went to prison and when i got out of prison i was homeless (and Marky Mark was there- and oddly enough- without his Funky Bunch) and i had a huge bottle of liquor in my hand. the three people that were with me wanted me to drink with them but i set the bottle down and went running through this field with my arms stretched out and i knew that the spirit of the universe was looking out for me. i was laying on the grass, looking up at the sky when i woke up. freedom.
i had a dream similar to this the last night i got drunk and the feeling was the same when i woke up. freedom. freedom from all of that fucked up shit i had been doing. a feeling that i wasnt going through this nightmare alone anymore.
a few minutes after i woke up this morning i got a phone call saying that i didnt have to do the thing i was "supposed" to do today.