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sometimes I feel like I'm living two separate lives, each equally as fulfilling but regardless two lives...
I don't know exactly when I started living these two lives, but it's like in one life I can be whoever I want to be and I know that the other ppl in that life with love me and care for me as I am. In the other life, I feel like everything I'm doing is in pursuit of making the other people happy... This however has started making me unhappy... But how is it I let myself do this? I feel like I go above and beyond what I am comfortable in doing or want to do just to make the other person happy... Why am I trying so hard? when I have people around me that are willing to make me happy at the drop of a pin??? is it because I perceive it as a challenge? why am I trying so hard at a friendship that is a one way street? this may seem petty but it's the thought of the moment
I don't know exactly when I started living these two lives, but it's like in one life I can be whoever I want to be and I know that the other ppl in that life with love me and care for me as I am. In the other life, I feel like everything I'm doing is in pursuit of making the other people happy... This however has started making me unhappy... But how is it I let myself do this? I feel like I go above and beyond what I am comfortable in doing or want to do just to make the other person happy... Why am I trying so hard? when I have people around me that are willing to make me happy at the drop of a pin??? is it because I perceive it as a challenge? why am I trying so hard at a friendship that is a one way street? this may seem petty but it's the thought of the moment