Something I regret..
Lizzy and I had been in a fight since my birthday. We got over it a few weeks ago, but still weren't back to normal. This afternoon I got a call from Liz telling me her older brother Clayton passed away this morning. After the initial shock of what she said settled, I was hysterical. Life just isnt fair. I dont really want to go into detail but the suffering for such a wonderful, loving, and caring person was not right, I just dont get it. So, to elaborate on my topic. For some STUPID little reason I hadnt been hanging out with Liz for months, which means I hadn't seen her family, which I love, her pets, which I love, and most importantly one of my best friends, Liz, which I love. My point is, the last time I saw Clayton was months ago, and now I will never have the chance to see him again. I'm devistated. Because of some stupid fight, someone who pretty much saved my life more than once (the bang on the window, and when I got sick from drinking) is gone, and I will never see him again. This probably doesnt make much sense but feelings are just spilling out. I wish I would have just patched things up with Liz right away, I lost almost 5 months with such a great friend, and I lost almost 5 months with her amazing family, and one of them Ive lost forever with, over one stupid little fight with a friend.