.. You Know Who You Are ..

[bebe416]

Heh. Strange. Nothing is going right lately. Go figure. It's becoming my life story now. God. I just don't know what to really say right now. I have so many emotions going through me. Anyways. I need some way to get this out, and I don't want to talk to him about it... So, I'll just type it in here. Anyhow. I met this guy Wensday night.. We talked for soOoOoOoOoOo long.. Well. We have talked EVERYDAY since then. And, Thursday night, I met him and I've seen him EVERYDAY since then.. We officialized our relationship Saturday night. Well. I saw him yesturday. He had a REAL bad day, poor baby. Car people treated him and his friend like crap, work sucked, his supervisor won't give him Friday off.. Well, his mom tells him he needs to be home early. (We both figured he was in trouble.. Which he was I guess.. I dunno..) Anyhow. He gets home. And well. A while ago, he and his ex broke up. He finally calls me today and tells me she's coming back. And now, I know he's going to leave me to go back to her. This SuCkS SoOoOoOoOo much. I ReAlLy DO care for him. I do. Just, I want him to be happy. I don't want him to go, ya know? But I just want him to be happy. And if that means him leaving me, fine, I guess. Just, I wish he would give this a chance and find out that I CAN make him happy. This is all up to him really. I have this gutt feeling though that he's going to leave me, if he hasn't already that is.. Just. I don't know. I wish he would give "us" a chance. If you are reading this, understand this.. I KNOW you still love her. I understand you always will, just like I will Craig and Nicole. But, again. Like I said. I wish you would give us a chance. I can't make you do anything you don't want to do. And I know I can't make you not love her or forget her. And I know I may never be able to make you as happy as she did. But.. I can say that I will try my damnedest. I'm here for you. I DO care for you. I REALLY do. I don't hate you. I'm just, real.. Forget it.. Just, I dunno. I can't make you do something you don't want to, and I don't want you to stay with me because you feel you have to for my sake.
Alright. I can't write anymore. There are so many other things I wanted to say, but sadly enough, I can barely see the screen; god damned my tears. To the person: If you have anything to say, you know how to reach me..
Alright, bye all.
-Brandi-