Too much thinking
I've always thought that my weight was the thing holding me back in life... the thing that caused me to have self doubt in my career and relationships. Perhaps it was why I kept hooking up with men that felt that they could take advantage of me.
And just now it occurred to me. It was never my weight. It was my lack of formal education. Without a degree I felt undeserving. I never felt equal or like I deserved better. My life started to change (slowly) once I went back to school. And things went into warp speed 5 after I applied to my masters program. And when I walked across the stage at convocation (still quite overweight) I started viewing myself differently. I had this confidence that was unrecognizable to me. Who knew that all I needed was a degree or two? Very interesting indeed.
Anyway, here I am now. On my way. With less baggage.
And just now it occurred to me. It was never my weight. It was my lack of formal education. Without a degree I felt undeserving. I never felt equal or like I deserved better. My life started to change (slowly) once I went back to school. And things went into warp speed 5 after I applied to my masters program. And when I walked across the stage at convocation (still quite overweight) I started viewing myself differently. I had this confidence that was unrecognizable to me. Who knew that all I needed was a degree or two? Very interesting indeed.
Anyway, here I am now. On my way. With less baggage.