The loneliness is strangling my life!
Throughout my life, i've been so used to not being in a realistic relationship, but right now in my life, its the one thing i feel i need more then money or anything else. Whenever i see or hear about a gf or bf, i always feel as though i'm still in the shadow, and even when i am noticed, its from someone who either has a bf or someone who is a real good friend. But i can't start dating another friend of mine, cause time after time it has lead to me never seeing them again, and i will never go forward with that, again. Theirs something inside me thats just begging to be set free, so someone can see what kind of guy i am, but i just don't have what it takes to make them see it for themselves. It just hurts alot, to not share anything with a certain someone u can hold, kiss, and just cuddle while u talk about whatever comes to mind. Thats something i find to be more precious then anything, its deep i kno, but its true too.