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When someone talks crap about you, you are not special. You are the same as everyone else, an unsuspecting victim, a normal human being. You are no more, no less important then the one talking. Usually the origin has nothing to do with the victim personally, but rather the workings of the one inducing the emotional pain.
The person actually speaking the offenses, on the other hand, is either so self conscious that the only way he/she can go through the day is by tearing someone else down or would rather be able to say, hey I left them, they didnt leave me. A vicious cycle making it almost impossible to form life long friends. Fear of being the one left behind is almost unbearable making you jump to conclusions about someone, feeling the extreme urge to tell others what your thinking, different then what your feeling. So afraid of pain, you'll break someone you actually like almost by habit.
You physically can not imagine the pain you are inducing, the hopes you are killing. You think to yourself, well if they said that to me, I wouldnt be mad. But really, truly you know nothing. It didn't happen to you. You saw it on a screen, from a distance. Like a cheap horror movie you and your friends went out see. As you watched people DIE, and scream for one last chance to LIVE, you are only slightly thrown off by the suspense and gore. You are not actually afraid and you cant possibly imagine that happening to you. But it can. It really can, and when it does, you'll be forced search for a hint of sympathy from the people whos lives you ruined.
The person actually speaking the offenses, on the other hand, is either so self conscious that the only way he/she can go through the day is by tearing someone else down or would rather be able to say, hey I left them, they didnt leave me. A vicious cycle making it almost impossible to form life long friends. Fear of being the one left behind is almost unbearable making you jump to conclusions about someone, feeling the extreme urge to tell others what your thinking, different then what your feeling. So afraid of pain, you'll break someone you actually like almost by habit.
You physically can not imagine the pain you are inducing, the hopes you are killing. You think to yourself, well if they said that to me, I wouldnt be mad. But really, truly you know nothing. It didn't happen to you. You saw it on a screen, from a distance. Like a cheap horror movie you and your friends went out see. As you watched people DIE, and scream for one last chance to LIVE, you are only slightly thrown off by the suspense and gore. You are not actually afraid and you cant possibly imagine that happening to you. But it can. It really can, and when it does, you'll be forced search for a hint of sympathy from the people whos lives you ruined.