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I went shopping yesterday with kris. We had a blast on the way down listening to 93.7 lol. When we got there Kristin was so scened out it was almost disgusting :D. So we walked around, went to hot topic, looked for things. It was kind of boring but we still had fun.
Its saturday now, I'm just sitting here. I had a crazy dream I don't want to talk about, but its making me be unhappy. I woke up and I was freaking out.
I hate how on days like this you just want to sit around, but then you remember you made plans with this person and it makes you annoyed and frustrated, cause you don't want to just ditch them. I hate when I do that. Make plans with someone and then with someone else. I can't decide which to do, but either way I end up the bad person. I need a secretary to help me lol. Then I wouldnt have to worry about people getting mad.
Yesterday, we had along talk about the things people have done in there life. My experiences are so sheltered, but they've saved me. The friends I had when I was younger are who the hoes and potheads and alcoholics are now. I don't know why I didn't go with them. It's not like its a horrible thing to drink or anything. Thats not what I meant the other day. Its just that, I never really thought about doing it, (my mom doesnt..never has) and I've seen what it does to some people, and it just pisses me off. It makes me unhappy. So I just don't. I never thought about doing it. I don't want to. But I am not anybody else, and I'm not going to think any less of you. I think one of your actions is disgusting, but not who you are.
Some of things people get mad about, I don't physically understand. Then the fact that they can't forgive and let it go, I cant understand more. I see people at school, and at the sign of the first argument, they start to spread rumors, "im gonna kick her ass", thats all they want is to retaliate. They don't think, maybe this isnt that big of a fucking deal, maybe I am acting slightly 5. Maybe I should just let shit go. But, we must all decide which battles are worth fighting, and which friends are worth forgiving. If someone means that much to you, a single lie could shatter everything, if someone means that much to you, a single lie could mean nothing. Its all perspective.....How you see it. No one see's or understands things and can explain or describe something better then your own brain can, your own senses can.
Its saturday now, I'm just sitting here. I had a crazy dream I don't want to talk about, but its making me be unhappy. I woke up and I was freaking out.
I hate how on days like this you just want to sit around, but then you remember you made plans with this person and it makes you annoyed and frustrated, cause you don't want to just ditch them. I hate when I do that. Make plans with someone and then with someone else. I can't decide which to do, but either way I end up the bad person. I need a secretary to help me lol. Then I wouldnt have to worry about people getting mad.
Yesterday, we had along talk about the things people have done in there life. My experiences are so sheltered, but they've saved me. The friends I had when I was younger are who the hoes and potheads and alcoholics are now. I don't know why I didn't go with them. It's not like its a horrible thing to drink or anything. Thats not what I meant the other day. Its just that, I never really thought about doing it, (my mom doesnt..never has) and I've seen what it does to some people, and it just pisses me off. It makes me unhappy. So I just don't. I never thought about doing it. I don't want to. But I am not anybody else, and I'm not going to think any less of you. I think one of your actions is disgusting, but not who you are.
Some of things people get mad about, I don't physically understand. Then the fact that they can't forgive and let it go, I cant understand more. I see people at school, and at the sign of the first argument, they start to spread rumors, "im gonna kick her ass", thats all they want is to retaliate. They don't think, maybe this isnt that big of a fucking deal, maybe I am acting slightly 5. Maybe I should just let shit go. But, we must all decide which battles are worth fighting, and which friends are worth forgiving. If someone means that much to you, a single lie could shatter everything, if someone means that much to you, a single lie could mean nothing. Its all perspective.....How you see it. No one see's or understands things and can explain or describe something better then your own brain can, your own senses can.