headache.
oh, emily.i really love you.stop worrying me.you're better than this.
tonight upset me.work was tedious, i don't like working with kim.she sort of worries me, in a bad way.dance was painful, i want to quit.but thirteen years is a lot to just forget about.yikes.tonight was dissappointing at first.i'm really annoyed that i didn't get to hang out with robby, mostly because i enjoy his company and i never really get the chance.emily picked me up and we went to the benefit thing at the summit.i hate band sluts.especially when they're fourteen and hitting on people in bad bands.we went to denny's, where we saw shilo and her brother.it was nice.shilo is nice.i love spending time with emily, though.i love you, emily.be okay.seriously.i am your bandaid, fo rizzle.<33
it really upsets me that everyone comes to me to 'fix' their problems.sort of.i hate that i am so talented at listening to people and saying the right things, things i know work to make people okay again.i hate it because even though i know what to do, i help people do it for themselves, i can't do it for myself.i hate that i can fix everyone but me.i really wish i knew how to make myself okay, instead of everyone else.i'm sick of being able to say all the right things but still be fucked up inside.i hate it.did i mention that?
tonight upset me.work was tedious, i don't like working with kim.she sort of worries me, in a bad way.dance was painful, i want to quit.but thirteen years is a lot to just forget about.yikes.tonight was dissappointing at first.i'm really annoyed that i didn't get to hang out with robby, mostly because i enjoy his company and i never really get the chance.emily picked me up and we went to the benefit thing at the summit.i hate band sluts.especially when they're fourteen and hitting on people in bad bands.we went to denny's, where we saw shilo and her brother.it was nice.shilo is nice.i love spending time with emily, though.i love you, emily.be okay.seriously.i am your bandaid, fo rizzle.<33
it really upsets me that everyone comes to me to 'fix' their problems.sort of.i hate that i am so talented at listening to people and saying the right things, things i know work to make people okay again.i hate it because even though i know what to do, i help people do it for themselves, i can't do it for myself.i hate that i can fix everyone but me.i really wish i knew how to make myself okay, instead of everyone else.i'm sick of being able to say all the right things but still be fucked up inside.i hate it.did i mention that?