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[beavepot]

I feel like I'm in a crisis with myself. I want to be my old self again but I can't because of what I do, I want my old friends back to the ones I know I can trust, people I've been around my whole life etc. I would really give my left nut to be a kid again be careless and really not have to worry about much. If this sounds depressing its not meant to be cause actually I'm in a really good mood, there is a bunch a shit going on right now that should make me sad/angry about life but I've decided to not let shit like that let me down and just deal with whatever happens. It's been working out alot better for myself lately, I think im moving myself out of the house I'm living in this week at sometime because I feel like I'm invading there privacy and I hate to do that so back to my room at the barracks I suppose for a few months. I will be up for moving out in October anyways because the barracks are packed, so there prob going to pay me more to live off base so it should work out just nicely. I like living out here really but I dont know if I could live here long way to many people and its starting to grow on me little by little.

Sigh I really wish I could type out everything I wanna say to everyone on here but I always forget what im going to say when I start to type in here.