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[beaux_yeux_]

Okay im going to get it out
i;ve figured out why i;ve been depressed

i miss my best friend
i truly miss her
and i guess i feel ignored
and like im not interesting enough for her
i feel like shes replaced me
and doesnt want to hang out anymore
because she has more interesting people to go hang out with
i;ve never been so depressed in my life
its overwhelming
and i just realized im making this look like a cry for attention
which theres a good chance this might be one
but w/e
you can think what you want of me
i really don;t care
i just want my best friends attention
and to spend time with her
i feel so alone
but i know im not
but knowing isn;t a feeling

EDIT

and if she happens to read this entry which i highly doubt she will
we have both changed tremendously
i wish you wouldnt punish me because i;ve changed
i wish you would hang out with me without me asking you too