Aug 08, 2004 23:06
..But oh no, don't you dare hang up this phone.
i dont want to care if you don't love me. i don't want to care if you don't change.
it makes no sense. i despise you, just thinking about you puts me in a worse mood. so why is it that the thought of you not caring kills me? with anyone else, it wouldnt matter the least bit, or even if it did, it would be a few days before i was perfectly fine. you're nothing special, not even my type.
tonight was a mistake, i can already feel it.
even as you're telling me it wasn't, i can see straight through it. in your tone, in the way your saying things. i know you all to well, you're not fooling anyone.
we want what we can't get. it makes perfect sense, if it's mutual, it must be too good to be true. so throw it out, forget it, move on to something you have to work for. chances are, you won't be a challenge for whoever you want, so the pattern repeats. try for something you know you can't get in the first place, so you can set yourself up for the heartache. it's like you can be perfectly happy, but you take it for granted, and you don't realize how happy you were until you feel like shit later on. i'm not telling you anything you don't already know.
There's no anecdote for irony
You say that you have, when you know
That you don't, and you say that you care
When you know that you won't
you're the only person i've ever been this vulnerable with. and you're not even worth it.
stupid human emotions.
miss me when im gone, it's the only thing i can count on with you.