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[beautyxoxirony]

i have come to the conclusion
that i am the kind of person that a lot of people like, but don't want to be close friends.
will never be able to have a steady relationship (friendship or the other kind of relationship) while in high school.
would date older guys...but that just gets weird...
need someone to bounce my creativity off of.
need more guy friends
gets really excited about music.
makes someone listen to a song and asks them 10 secs into it what they think.
i can form opinions that fast.
i find that i'm always just barely content.
i think casual sex is humorous.
i dont know when to be confident and when to be modest, don't know my boundries.
i dont have boundries.
i dont have morals.
i dont have regrets.
I always think that the friends i have don't want to be around me,
that they're bored of me,
that i've changed them, made them unhappier.
i don't remember conversations with people.
i don't really remember what i've said to anyone lately.
i'm the kind of person who tries to be excited and satisfied.
but things just don't work out.