what u didn't know
so i guess kate isn't my friend anymore... i want to be upset and i am sad about it but i have really been doing alot of soul searching since i moved down here... i really never had to be alone through out my whole live so i've always had people to comfort me when i was down... but now i have no one... no one but myself and the books that i read... (i know me read??? what a weird concept but i have finished 3 books since i moved down here)in all the books that i have read they have one thing in common they all say that u can't focus on negativity cause if u do u wan't be anything but unhappy... i mean i do feel sorry for hurting kate but if she won't forgive me than there is really nothing i can do about it must respect her decishion and go on living with my life... u see that is thinking positive... whell speaking of soul searching i did a spell to bring peace to my house cause i was tired of all the fighting... more than a month later my aunt decited to do a search before i had to go to work... whell she found all my bowls except Twenty and a nick bag of regs... i had to go to work but after it was over i was too sceard to go home and waited a while to go home... and i mean a while like when the sun came down... but i faced my fear and went home to my aunt who wanted to have the imfoumous "talk" with me... but with negitive came positive and my aunt wasn't mad... she accually told me why she doesn't like that stuff in her house (which is her business not mine so i will keep secrect) and she was ok that i did it... she just said don't bring weed to my house and u can keep ur bowls... good deal if u ask me... whell that was a lesson for me to keep positive... just like with kate.. she my not want to be friends with me anymore... but i can't do anything but keep my head up and see it as one less person in my life... i will always miss her but i can't soak on the ideal of loosing her... i called jessica last night... i didn't expect her to be home but i called anyways... i don't know... i love her and she will always be my best friend but i think i just might give up on calling her... she is too busy for me and by calling her i am not letting her move on with her life... which she is doing wonderful with out me might i add... i mean im not going to stop calling her all together but i don't think i will do it as much... but im gonna get going cause i have to go find where i put the house keys before my aunt comes home and i made a promise to my new tarot cards that i would cleanse them tonight since it has been a week since i got them... so peace...
~tasha~
~tasha~