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[beautyscream]

I can't believe it. Leo is trying to leave me!!!

They've clipped my wings again
tore them apart and then
left me
No use to fly away to
my yesterday
of freedom
My eyes died back that day
seeing the hurt I may have done
Beat me instead of them
pain is my only zen
of fun

I'll go where secrets are sold
where roses unfold
I'll sleep as time goes by

So hurting here is where I belong singing a song
blood on my hands to stay strong
The flowers in the graveyard are all gone I don't belong
there is no right to heal the wrong
soup's on hot feelin' like a do or die
I can't throw up don't think i even want to try

You still can't make me cry
you've pinned this butterfly
down
My fire's burning out
kill my flame without
a frown
And starving hurts the soul
when you're hungry for
some love
So if I close my eyes
I can really fly
above

I'll go where secrets are sold
where roses unfold
I'll sleep as time goes by

So hurting here is where I belong dreaming a song
blood on my hands to stay strong
the flowers in the graveyard are all gone I don't belong
there is no right to heal the wrong
soup's on hot feelin' like a do or die
I can't throw up don't think I even want to
tryyy- tryyyy- tryyyyyy

SadClown2004 [9:54 PM]: so whats the deal with you
SadClown2004 [9:54 PM]: IM me once and then yer on the road for another 6 weeks
SadClown2004 [9:54 PM]: we have a kid together you know
SadClown2004 [9:54 PM]: you have responsibilites
SadClown2004 [9:55 PM]: spelled accordingly
My Suns shadow [9:55 PM]: I'm sorry! *cries relentlessly*
My Suns shadow [9:55 PM]: I'm so overwelmed!
SadClown2004 [9:55 PM]: Yeah well, thats not good enough for me
SadClown2004 [9:55 PM]: Its over.
My Suns shadow [9:56 PM]: I don't even know our kids name. Im a horrible mother.
My Suns shadow [9:56 PM]: noooooo
My Suns shadow [9:56 PM]: no
My Suns shadow [9:56 PM]: no
My Suns shadow [9:56 PM]: no
My Suns shadow [9:56 PM]: You can't leave me!
SadClown2004 [9:57 PM]: :(
My Suns shadow [9:58 PM]: this isn't fair to our kid
My Suns shadow [10:00 PM]: talk to me...... you can't leave me. I know you couldn't
SadClown2004 [10:01 PM]: Actually..
SadClown2004 [10:01 PM]: Ive been talking to that girl ashley a lot.. on those COLD COLD NIGHTS WHEN YER OUT GROUPYING AT HANSON CONCERTS
My Suns shadow [10:02 PM]: YOU KNOW I DONT GO TO HANSON ANYMORE... I GROUPE AT 80's METAL BAND REUNION TOURS!!!!!
SadClown2004 signed off at 10:06 PM

No no not cool!!!!!!!!!

Anyway... I had my saxaphone recital this morning. It went pretty well. My first real solo. Ms. Layton was soooooooo proud of me. So I was happy

Ryan came over. It was cool. Geezus he kissed me for like 5 minutes and my legs were getting tired <3

Spazticsk8er [10:24 PM]: got ya already
Spazticsk8er [10:24 PM]: hotness
My Suns shadow [10:25 PM]: ha... you're very hot <3
Spazticsk8er [10:25 PM]: no
My Suns shadow [10:26 PM]: oh well there's no use in arguing
My Suns shadow [10:27 PM]: what are you up to?
Spazticsk8er [10:28 PM]: sitting here hurting
My Suns shadow [10:28 PM]: why are you hurting?
My Suns shadow [10:28 PM]: may I ask?
Spazticsk8er [10:28 PM]: my back
My Suns shadow [10:29 PM]: not fun... I was skating today and slipped somehow and landed on my back :-\
Spazticsk8er [10:29 PM]: thats how i got hurt
My Suns shadow [10:30 PM]: creepy
Spazticsk8er [10:31 PM]: bb in a min guitar time for a min
My Suns shadow [10:31 PM]: ok
Spazticsk8er [10:35 PM]: back
My Suns shadow [10:35 PM]: cool
My Suns shadow [10:35 PM]: what kind of guitar do you have?
Spazticsk8er [10:35 PM]: crappy begginer yamaha
My Suns shadow [10:36 PM]: hmm how long have you been playing?
Spazticsk8er [10:37 PM]: like since friday again
Spazticsk8er [10:37 PM]: lol
Spazticsk8er [10:37 PM]: i tried before but i stoped
My Suns shadow [10:37 PM]: oh that's cool
My Suns shadow [10:38 PM]: I've been playing for 4 years... I have a Talyor
My Suns shadow [10:38 PM]: I'd let you play it if you lived anywhere remotly rear me
Spazticsk8er [10:39 PM]: my back hates me
My Suns shadow [10:40 PM]: my fingers hate me.... for good reasons. My back is just... achy but it's nothing new
Spazticsk8er [10:40 PM]: now if iwas a perv
Spazticsk8er [10:40 PM]: id think something
My Suns shadow [10:41 PM]: Oh that does sound dirty... I wasn't even trying either
My Suns shadow [10:41 PM]: sorry
My Suns shadow [10:41 PM]: lol
Spazticsk8er [10:41 PM]: uh huh ur crying out for soe action arent u
Spazticsk8er [10:41 PM]: lol
My Suns shadow [10:41 PM]: hahaha
My Suns shadow [10:42 PM]: O:-)
Spazticsk8er [10:43 PM]: uh huh
Spazticsk8er [10:43 PM]: sureeee
My Suns shadow [10:44 PM]: how embarrassing
Spazticsk8er [10:45 PM]: yes ur the finger queen

lmao how embarrassing!