your the cancer in my veins.
" i can only be myself, and nothing more." and i'm sorry if that just isnt good enough for everyone anymore. i dont want anyone ot hate me ofr who i am today. im really starting to liek who i'm turing out to be. i've got goals and morals and i just care abotu alot of things i think more thna i ever have beofre. i care about everyone of you more thna you could ever know or realize. i know i may not always show it. but my friends mean more than anything to me.i try really hard to be nice and friendly to everyone thta crosses my path. i am always myself and i rarley dislike anyone, even then i try not to talk badly about you.i just want to be friends with everyone, i know thats impossible to have everyone like you. but i dont want my old friends to fal away because i have new ones and im sort of changing. im really just growing up and realzing what i want to be and do and how i want to live.
im figuring out whats right and wrong and what i believe in. and even if i dont always see you in school or in the halls i sitll want ot hang otu or call you or talk to you on aim. just dont write me letters cause i proably wont have time to write back. but i still love you all and want to see you. sometimes you think you know a person inside and out, but really you have no idea who they are or whats gonig on inside them. im pretty inscure these days just with everything going on inside me. new school year seeing less of all ym really close firends from last year.ive kidna gotta start all over in a way. late at night when i think ot much i can get really critical of mself and pull out the worst in me. but right now i feel like people are trying to see the worst parts of me only. im a good person i try really hard to be.
i try not to be annoying or to loud or too happy. but if i feel happy and optmistic i cant help it inside. if i just wanna scream sometimes when i see you its cuase im really happy to see you. sometimes for me happniess or even just liking myself can be a huge accomplishment.sometimes the story gets mixed up. i can be really insucure about who iam. but im trying to be conident and bulid up myself esteem. please dont doubt me. and dont leave me.
"i need you like water in my lungs."
switching ot this journal again.