Saturday Sucked
Yea, this weekend wasnt the greatest. Friday i went to the movies with my boy and say 50 First Dates. It was good.. we kicked it.. and laughed and all that. And then saturday had to come. I met my boy at RSL... i knew it was gunna be a shitty night by the way it started. He was all off doin his thing. And ok i mean we only get to see eachother maybe once a week and you'd think that we'd be all together and all that. But he was off doing whatever and i was sitting there bored as hell. Not his fault but i would have liked to of spent more time with him. he complains how he misses me and wants to spend time with me... but when it comes to it.. it almost feels like he kinda ignores me.. i dunno im just sick of all this rollercoaster shit. one minute im so happy cause im with him.. but in the next im just like oook whatever then. But yea he ended up leaving at 10 to go to TJ with his brothers.. understandable... but he didnt even say bye. my friend was like ok why dont u say by at least. and i stood up i was like naw fuck it whatever i dont give a fuck and walked off. and he left. But whatever ya know. Im not lettin shit get to me.. brush ya shoulders off right? so yea im just sick of dealing with guys... because right when i start falling for them.. i basically get back handed ya know? like ill wait awhile and slowly like let them know im interested but not ya know? and then once i finnally fall for them...it gets fucked up. so im done with falling for guys right now. im dont with trying to be in a relationship. but the thing is.. i dont wanna be fuckin with someone and not have it going anywhere because its worthless.. it only leads someone on. So i dunno wut im guna do.. i dont know if i should tell him whats on my mind or just let it go on... i dont know wut to do right now.. i hate it when im like this... i gota go make myself happy.