Looking Back On Memories
Well today i got home at like 12:00 because of finals (which i did HELLA BAD on) but yea i was bored so i decided to look through my desks in my room and see wuts all in them. Well i cam across a note and pictures of me and my ex (whom may i add i never got over because he ran away a few years ago and i havent talked to him ever since i saw him the day before in school) and yea i just started to think back on how i could have treated him so much better and how better it all would have been if it wasnt for friends influecing my choices. And i dunno im upset because i cant stop thinking about him and i really do miss him. Even though im in love with my one right now, i cant help but think that... well.. i feel i loved this other guy. And i mean i dont "love" to many guys... cause i mean the only guy ive been in love with is the one im with right now... but i look back and realise.. that i started to fall in love with this guy and i took it all for granted because i thought he'd always be here... but i was wrong. one day he just uped and dissapeared. So now it brings me to the issue that i need to start holding on to the things i love the most and not take them so much for granted. I need to stop worring about all the little things and just let the people i love know it. Even if we argue 24/7 ... i need to start letting everyone close to me how much they really do mean to me. Because its true.. you never know when things will be gone.