He got locked up, they won't let him out...
*sigh* So July 23, while I was in Simi Valley at my sister's house, LAPD picked up David on his Ventura County warrant and he's been in custody ever since... Well, okay, so he was held in LA jail for VC for 5 days, and then VC picked him up and booked him into the main jail.. and he was there up until yesterday, which was when they transferred him over to the Todd Roads jail (still in Ventura*), which is where he is right now. It's so fucking depressing without my baby by my side... He has court on the 16th of this month, and hopefully if all goes well, he'll be able to come home. All this for a fuck'n 'failure to appear' in March, which he didn't even fail to appear cuz he had his damn atterney go for him and state that he was, at that very fucking moment, being checked into Tarzana Treatment Center and thus couldn't be at the court house. And the rehab shit was FOR probation cuz the fucking cunt told him to go into one... But leave it to the fuck'n pigs and legal system to fuck with my man anyway they possibley can.. Errr... douche bags, I swear. That's all they fucking are.
I miss him sooo much. I fucking hate being home. His stuff is everywhere around me and his side of the bed is still made up. Still smells like him. Just right beside me, cold and empty and depressing as all hell. When he gets out we've decided to get engaged.. He already has a ring that his family passes down thru out their generations. We're gonna do everything right this time around tho. No more drugs or shady ass faggots he likes to reffer to as 'friends.' They're all fucking lames if you ask me, and I've been saying that since day fucking one, dude. Fuck 'em. All of them. It's always been me and him against the world, and now that meaning is held up stronger than ever.
In LA they had pay phones in their cells so he was actually able to call me whenever he wanted, as much as he wanted, and it was so awesome. Then at the Ventura main jail, they don't have phones in the cells, but still there was a lot of access to them and so I could hear from him several times thru out the days/nites. But over in Todd Roads, they have them in lock down most of the day and so his first phone call of the day doesn't even happen until like 3:30pm or after. And at the Ventura jail they didn't have to go into main lock down, meaning bed time basically and all phones shut off, until 9:30 at nite. Todd Roads shuts off at 8. And most likely they could be/are/have been in lock down from previous hours that lapse into that time so chances of being able to have our 'good nite' calls are slim to none. Now I hear from him only twice a day. Once for sure, but twice if we're lucky. It's so fucking hard.. I hate this.
Tomorrow is visiting tho so I getta see my baby!! <33 I'm super happy about that. It's so fucked tho to have to sit there with a fucking glass wall between us. I haven't gotten to touch him, or feel him, or kiss him, or smell him, nothing, eversince fuckin July 23rd. It's torchure. He promised me tho that as soon as he's out, we're gettin a hotel room to make up for lost time. hahah. Awww.. my baby. He's the cutest. I'd give anything to be able to kiss him right now. *sigh* Everything happens for a reason, I know. But sometimes, in times like this, until all is over and done with, the reasons are just so insignificant to me. Ugh. I've been able to visit him one other time, 2 weeks ago, for 30 minutes. Tomorrow I can see him again for another 30 minutes.. He's allowed 2 thirty minute visits so I'm gonna fill out the slip and go for both. That's one whole hour with my baby. I can't wait! :D
Kay has been staying the nite everynite this week and it's meant so much to me to have her by my side during this mess. She's the best! I love my KayKK! heh. She's on her way over here right now as a matter of fact. Which is so comforting cuz I'm usually always home a lone over here and David lived here with me before he got locked up, so it's like he's everywhere over here, but still gone. I really just cannot wait until he can finally come home. I need him. He's my other half. I feel so empty without him right here, right now. I'm so much more in love with this boy than I thought I could ever be.. He makes it seem like, "Danco who!?" True story.
Im gonna go smoke a cig and wait for Kay to get here. And maybe write David another letter? We'll see..
I miss him sooo much. I fucking hate being home. His stuff is everywhere around me and his side of the bed is still made up. Still smells like him. Just right beside me, cold and empty and depressing as all hell. When he gets out we've decided to get engaged.. He already has a ring that his family passes down thru out their generations. We're gonna do everything right this time around tho. No more drugs or shady ass faggots he likes to reffer to as 'friends.' They're all fucking lames if you ask me, and I've been saying that since day fucking one, dude. Fuck 'em. All of them. It's always been me and him against the world, and now that meaning is held up stronger than ever.
In LA they had pay phones in their cells so he was actually able to call me whenever he wanted, as much as he wanted, and it was so awesome. Then at the Ventura main jail, they don't have phones in the cells, but still there was a lot of access to them and so I could hear from him several times thru out the days/nites. But over in Todd Roads, they have them in lock down most of the day and so his first phone call of the day doesn't even happen until like 3:30pm or after. And at the Ventura jail they didn't have to go into main lock down, meaning bed time basically and all phones shut off, until 9:30 at nite. Todd Roads shuts off at 8. And most likely they could be/are/have been in lock down from previous hours that lapse into that time so chances of being able to have our 'good nite' calls are slim to none. Now I hear from him only twice a day. Once for sure, but twice if we're lucky. It's so fucking hard.. I hate this.
Tomorrow is visiting tho so I getta see my baby!! <33 I'm super happy about that. It's so fucked tho to have to sit there with a fucking glass wall between us. I haven't gotten to touch him, or feel him, or kiss him, or smell him, nothing, eversince fuckin July 23rd. It's torchure. He promised me tho that as soon as he's out, we're gettin a hotel room to make up for lost time. hahah. Awww.. my baby. He's the cutest. I'd give anything to be able to kiss him right now. *sigh* Everything happens for a reason, I know. But sometimes, in times like this, until all is over and done with, the reasons are just so insignificant to me. Ugh. I've been able to visit him one other time, 2 weeks ago, for 30 minutes. Tomorrow I can see him again for another 30 minutes.. He's allowed 2 thirty minute visits so I'm gonna fill out the slip and go for both. That's one whole hour with my baby. I can't wait! :D
Kay has been staying the nite everynite this week and it's meant so much to me to have her by my side during this mess. She's the best! I love my KayKK! heh. She's on her way over here right now as a matter of fact. Which is so comforting cuz I'm usually always home a lone over here and David lived here with me before he got locked up, so it's like he's everywhere over here, but still gone. I really just cannot wait until he can finally come home. I need him. He's my other half. I feel so empty without him right here, right now. I'm so much more in love with this boy than I thought I could ever be.. He makes it seem like, "Danco who!?" True story.
Im gonna go smoke a cig and wait for Kay to get here. And maybe write David another letter? We'll see..